I started to write this in hope to have some conversation or find people who find themselves in similar situation.
In Bible Epf 6:12 (Im not native english speaker so my references are all translated) "We are not fighting against this worlds powers..."
I read a few months ago news about man who shot to death his family. That got my attention because the reason he said for his act: He heard voice telling him to do that. And that's not the first such voice telling to do something I have heard.
Now I hope nobody thinks im crazy when I say this. But I knwo what they are talking about. I, kinda, hear or to be more presice feel that voice too. I don't really know when I started to feel it. I was kid or teen at least.
To me it's thought that to those people I have read. Most of the time when I feel it it's uncomperhensible mumbling, screaming, yelling and roaring full of hate. When I actually can make sense of it the words are spoken with the same tone and language as I normally think, which makes them time to time tricky to identify from my own thoughts.
Because what I feel is thougths and it's more felt than heard I have some times seen like images or felt like memories of physical feelings as well. When I write this I have on going "vision" as following: Im sitting in my work place at peace, but im surrounded by ring or circle of fire. Inside the fire I see countless of figures and faces. I can't make any clear detail of anything and the "vision" is very dim yet surprisingly real. I hear noise as I described above but cannot make out any words that is yelled to me.
I have had this kind of vision once before. The time when i prayed for my friend who were possessed by evil spirit and the spirit was chased away. I don't know for sure did the spirit threatened anything but according to my friends reaction (before the event) and my own experience I suspect it threatened that if it's driven away from her it will seek and hurt me. When this particular event happened I heard same way as now loud but by force sillenced noise. And I saw figure of 4 legged black thing circling me around. But important is that it couldn't come closer than the fiery ring. It felt like the ring is formed around the bubble or such that is protecting me. How close they can be, and still we're unreachable to them. I believe that is how God shows his power and protection to my understandable way.
I understand that the door to hear, feel, and see these things is shut for most of people. For some so tight they may even start to think that the door dont' even exists. Well if any of you reading this hear my advice, Do not try to open this door unless it's opened for you for sake of your own sanity. These things around me know everything in me and they know I hear them. Nothing makes more sweet to them than see me suffer.
I trust in Jesus my saviour. To see the hate around me alone proves me each day that God is true and Jesus have saved me.
In Bible Epf 6:12 (Im not native english speaker so my references are all translated) "We are not fighting against this worlds powers..."
I read a few months ago news about man who shot to death his family. That got my attention because the reason he said for his act: He heard voice telling him to do that. And that's not the first such voice telling to do something I have heard.
Now I hope nobody thinks im crazy when I say this. But I knwo what they are talking about. I, kinda, hear or to be more presice feel that voice too. I don't really know when I started to feel it. I was kid or teen at least.
To me it's thought that to those people I have read. Most of the time when I feel it it's uncomperhensible mumbling, screaming, yelling and roaring full of hate. When I actually can make sense of it the words are spoken with the same tone and language as I normally think, which makes them time to time tricky to identify from my own thoughts.
Because what I feel is thougths and it's more felt than heard I have some times seen like images or felt like memories of physical feelings as well. When I write this I have on going "vision" as following: Im sitting in my work place at peace, but im surrounded by ring or circle of fire. Inside the fire I see countless of figures and faces. I can't make any clear detail of anything and the "vision" is very dim yet surprisingly real. I hear noise as I described above but cannot make out any words that is yelled to me.
I have had this kind of vision once before. The time when i prayed for my friend who were possessed by evil spirit and the spirit was chased away. I don't know for sure did the spirit threatened anything but according to my friends reaction (before the event) and my own experience I suspect it threatened that if it's driven away from her it will seek and hurt me. When this particular event happened I heard same way as now loud but by force sillenced noise. And I saw figure of 4 legged black thing circling me around. But important is that it couldn't come closer than the fiery ring. It felt like the ring is formed around the bubble or such that is protecting me. How close they can be, and still we're unreachable to them. I believe that is how God shows his power and protection to my understandable way.
I understand that the door to hear, feel, and see these things is shut for most of people. For some so tight they may even start to think that the door dont' even exists. Well if any of you reading this hear my advice, Do not try to open this door unless it's opened for you for sake of your own sanity. These things around me know everything in me and they know I hear them. Nothing makes more sweet to them than see me suffer.
I trust in Jesus my saviour. To see the hate around me alone proves me each day that God is true and Jesus have saved me.
