Emz.. yes, it's difficult but think for a moment of the other side of the coin. You are the only person in your family that has found the greatest gift ever known to man.. the love and forgiveness of Jesus. He is in your heart and you have the assurance that you will blessed to be with Him for all of eternity. Your family is lost and cannot know the joy and the peace and the blessing that Jesus gives. You are blessed in your life to know Jesus at such a young age. Things may be difficult now, but God has a wonderful, beautiful plan for your life. A plan to prosper you and not harm you. Continue to stay close to the Lord and just watch what He does with your life.
Jeremiah 29:11 New International Version (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I'm praying for you!