I don't want to be a Kill Joy...

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Matt37777

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I don't want to be a Kill Joy...but I have a question. I just think it's weird how the older I'm getting the more miserable life seems to get. I'm 38 now and I don't mind my age at all, but I just have lost most of my drive and happiness in life. I do appreciate what I have and I'm grateful for it, but I just find that the older I'm getting the more I can't stand life. Like everyday life just seems to be for the most part hinged around "how do I make money" and I really don't find anything fun anymore, I don't have any real love in my life, nothing excites me much anymore, life is full of nothing but problems, I find the more I know about how the north american system is engineered to enslave it's people the more I resent it and TPTB. Like I often find myself saying the quote after the country song "all I really got to do is live an die and I'm in a hurry...". I find that helps keep me sane because I know that it doesn't matter what happens to me I just got to keep living anyway. I just wish life would be more fun, more enjoyable, less problems, less people out to 'get you" in life, more love, hope, happiness. Like half the time I just can't wait for my time on earth to be up. I just wish there was some solution to try and make life worth living again. Like I'm not depressed either or anything like that. I'm not one of those people who goes about their day having a pitty party even though they have a good life. I'm talking about real problems, ongoing and non stop that just dry up all your juice to the point where you just barely are functioning anymore a human being.

I just wonder what to do?? :(
 
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kenisyes

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You sound like Ps. 90:10

I had the same problem at your age. Too much energy being spent on things you have to do, and not enough energy left over to decide what you want to do. It's really just a stage. The solution, if this can be called a solution, is to know it's normal, and it's okay to be here just because God wants it that way for now. "In life and in death we are the Lord's".

At my age, I have too much time, and not enough people who want to commit to being as serious about following Jesus as I want to be (hence my 1700 posts in 4 - 1/2 months). But there really is a lovely time inbetween, when you will get the "have-to's" caught up, and you will have the energy, money and time for the "want-to's". And then, one day, life will look to you like you can live any part of it in your memory, so you can have the good and the bad all together, and choose what you want to remember.
 
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Matt37777

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Maybe I'm just going threw a hard time in my life just seems like everyone is against me and nothing tends to work. Not sure what to think or do anymore. I was gonna start a business but I'm not sure I will now. The PTB have been on my case so I'm too scared to. Once you're in their radar then basically to do anything is risky.
 
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Ugly

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Matt37777 said:
I don't want to be a Kill Joy...but I have a question. I just think it's weird how the older I'm getting the more miserable life seems to get. I'm 38 now and I don't mind my age at all, but I just have lost most of my drive and happiness in life. I do appreciate what I have and I'm grateful for it, but I just find that the older I'm getting the more I can't stand life. Like everyday life just seems to be for the most part hinged around "how do I make money" and I really don't find anything fun anymore, I don't have any real love in my life, nothing excites me much anymore, life is full of nothing but problems, I find the more I know about how the north american system is engineered to enslave it's people the more I resent it and TPTB. Like I often find myself saying the quote after the country song "all I really got to do is live an die and I'm in a hurry...". I find that helps keep me sane because I know that it doesn't matter what happens to me I just got to keep living anyway. I just wish life would be more fun, more enjoyable, less problems, less people out to 'get you" in life, more love, hope, happiness. Like half the time I just can't wait for my time on earth to be up. I just wish there was some solution to try and make life worth living again. Like I'm not depressed either or anything like that. I'm not one of those people who goes about their day having a pitty party even though they have a good life. I'm talking about real problems, ongoing and non stop that just dry up all your juice to the point where you just barely are functioning anymore a human being.

I just wonder what to do?? :(
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You say you aren't depressed, but the way you talk is exactly how a depressed person talks. How do you know you aren't depressed? Have you been evaluated by a professional? Or are you just saying it because thats what you want to think? Many people deny their depression, but denying it doesn't make it not true. Don't be so quick to dismiss the concept.
 
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flight316

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I suggest that you speak to a professional. Many people feel the way you do these days. I'm sure that there are programs where you are that offer help with no cost to you. God bless you.
 
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ChristianGuy0

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As I read your post I thought of an interesting sermon Brian Houston gave about this.. Talking about what life is really about, and how Ecclesiastes talks about meaning.. Here a link to the clip.

Here's a quote from that clip:
"If there's times in my life when I'm just not happy, the first question I ought to ask myself is, "Is it still all about Him?"" - Brian Houston
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I think if we can truly put God and His purposes as "what our lives are all about" then we will always have goals and tasks and meaning. We will always have poor people to feed. We will always have the unsaved to preach too. We'll always have broken people to tell them about the God of creation who restores. We'll always have a church to support, a widow to comfort and a person to share the good news of Jesus Christ with. Even if we live to 100 we'll still be able to pursue those simple but profound goals and they have more meaning then making excessive money, gaining the world's acceptance or other ultimately vain achievements.
 
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psychomom

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I think a lot of folks feel the way you do at your time in life.
oh, the drudgery of it all.
it's no longer new, and there's no end you can see yet.
Shakespeare got it.
Also, see Ecclesiastes.
(vanity, vanity...)

I don't know if you'll find it helpful,
but what I did was to begin to look at other people's lives.
The orphans in Africa,
digging through piles of trash for food.
The persecuted in China,
and their families not knowing where the gov't took them.
My neighbors, living 'good' lives,
but lost, without Jesus.

Then I began to think about what I have to be grateful for.
Electricity, running water, food, shelter,
safety in which to lie down and sleep.
Just the basics, yet 80% of the world lack them.

And if you can add to that just one person who loves you,
well, you get my drift. ;)
Once you begin an honest list of
'things I should thank God for',
you'll find it gets pretty long.
Thanks for my morning coffee, Lord.
Thanks for the lady who smiled at me in the checkout line.
Thanks for the internet.
Thanks for the Bible, Lord.

That process really turned my life around.
(well, of course it was the Lord working in that. :) )
If I spend too much time looking at the bigger picture,
I get a little depressed, too.
So I narrow my focus, because it's really about where our focus is. :)
(Jesus)

I'm praying for you this morning. ♥
-ellie
 
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