Thank you for sharing this although I am not entirely sure why you felt the need, on a Christian site? but, it is easy to respond to your post. I am very happy to report that according to God (in whom I do still believe
those who are safe in Gods hands cannot be 'snatched ' away, so....if you have indeed been saved, by a repentant acceptance of Christs sacrifice on the cross, you remain that way. No amount of denial and Youtube vids will alter that oh! prodigal one, you are just having a very 'public' falling away. However it's exciting to think how it could make an excellant testimony in the future though!! God is so much bigger than your denial. However, maybe you never where a true believer? people often report losing their faith but we are reminded they probably never hada solif footing in the first place....shifting sands.... If the latter is the case I am convinced there is hope. I shall pray you will hear Him, turn to Him and accept Him with a repentant heart. God Bless you dear boy, in His name, <><
