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I recently came out of a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship. We were both abusive to each other and were this way I think because we weren't walking with God. A couple months ago when things were good, I asked God to show me who I'm supposed to marry by having them give me white roses. I prayed in silence so it was only between God and I. The next day my boyfriend (now ex) gave me white roses and not only that but jokingly kneeled down on one knee and "proposed". I didn't realize what happened at the time but about 3 minutes later I was reminded that I prayed about it. We thought it was crazy. I was skeptical because I didn't think God could be that clear and we were in an ungodly relationship too but my boyfriend wasn't. He told me that he believes it, asked why I wouldn't and then said he believed it because he's a christian.
My ex is not the kind of person I want to be with for the rest of my life. And especially with the kinds of things that happened between us I do not want to be with him. BUT I do believe that with a lot of prayer and faith in God, He can change anyone and fix any situation. My ex boyfriend was my first boyfriend and the only person I've been able to connect with or have understand me in every single way. I can't imagine being with anyone else or finding someone else that similar. At the same time, he isn't walking with God and that bothers me. And I don't want to be with someone who isn't going to choose the lifestyle I want and God wants. I want a good, strong, Christ-driven relationship with my ex boyfriend but it's really hard to see how things could be turned around. And I can't forget about the white roses. I've prayed for God to give me a sign and I know He may just be testing me to trust in Him but I don't want to go back and forth.
We got in such a huge fight before he moved to Maryland for a job position. I will be moving to Virginia in a couple months. He told me that he was done with me and that we will never date again. I don't think we'll have to date to know if we want to get married or not. I know that we understand each other like no other person.
My pastor told me to forget about it and said he thinks it may be a counterfeit, and when I told my mom about it she was shocked. I do want to marry him. I do want to be with him. I just want a Godly relationship with him. One where I know he will be there spiritually like I need a husband to be. I want a partner in Christ.
It may sound like I want someone to tell me that we will be together, but that's not what I want. I want answers to everything. I want scripture to back up something like this. I want reasons for why God would do this. I don't see how the enemy could've since he couldn't hear me and I didn't let my ex boyfriend know about it before he grabbed the flowers. I would like advice on if I should wait for him? Should I believe this sign? How do I gain faith in Christ with this there? How do I trust what happened? I know I need to focus on God. That's not the kind of answer I'm looking for. I want reasons as to why I should believe in this or not. I just need help. Thank you.
My ex is not the kind of person I want to be with for the rest of my life. And especially with the kinds of things that happened between us I do not want to be with him. BUT I do believe that with a lot of prayer and faith in God, He can change anyone and fix any situation. My ex boyfriend was my first boyfriend and the only person I've been able to connect with or have understand me in every single way. I can't imagine being with anyone else or finding someone else that similar. At the same time, he isn't walking with God and that bothers me. And I don't want to be with someone who isn't going to choose the lifestyle I want and God wants. I want a good, strong, Christ-driven relationship with my ex boyfriend but it's really hard to see how things could be turned around. And I can't forget about the white roses. I've prayed for God to give me a sign and I know He may just be testing me to trust in Him but I don't want to go back and forth.
We got in such a huge fight before he moved to Maryland for a job position. I will be moving to Virginia in a couple months. He told me that he was done with me and that we will never date again. I don't think we'll have to date to know if we want to get married or not. I know that we understand each other like no other person.
My pastor told me to forget about it and said he thinks it may be a counterfeit, and when I told my mom about it she was shocked. I do want to marry him. I do want to be with him. I just want a Godly relationship with him. One where I know he will be there spiritually like I need a husband to be. I want a partner in Christ.
It may sound like I want someone to tell me that we will be together, but that's not what I want. I want answers to everything. I want scripture to back up something like this. I want reasons for why God would do this. I don't see how the enemy could've since he couldn't hear me and I didn't let my ex boyfriend know about it before he grabbed the flowers. I would like advice on if I should wait for him? Should I believe this sign? How do I gain faith in Christ with this there? How do I trust what happened? I know I need to focus on God. That's not the kind of answer I'm looking for. I want reasons as to why I should believe in this or not. I just need help. Thank you.