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Hi. I just wondered if it was still possible to be a Christian. I am going to be honest when I write this even if it turns out wrong.
I used to be a Christian. I never doubted the existence of God and what the Bible says. I lost my faith when my Aunt died of cancer. I know this is sad and I don't mean to upset anyone but I am just telling the truth. Anyway so I prayed and begged for her to stay alive. It didn't happen. I know this is wrong but I blamed God. I thought he hated me so much that he took her away. I never meant to feel like this but it was how it felt. I sometimes still get upset over this
Anyway getting away from this topic I then went very anti Christian. I won't go into details I am sure you can have some idea about what I did. I am just sorry I ever done it. I want to put it right. When ever I saw a person giving out leaflets I used to rip them up in front of him/her. I even once said I wanted to go to Hell. I don't understand why I was like this cause of course I don't want to. I want to get back to the way I was. I want to be Christian again. I don't want to be evil anymore.
Is it too late or is there a way I can turn it around and if there is, is there a way I can keep my faith? I just want to be the way I was before. I am not making any of this up. I need to get it of my mind.
I want to become a Christian again. I wish I never went like this.
Thanks for reading. Please tell me how I can put this right.
Della
I used to be a Christian. I never doubted the existence of God and what the Bible says. I lost my faith when my Aunt died of cancer. I know this is sad and I don't mean to upset anyone but I am just telling the truth. Anyway so I prayed and begged for her to stay alive. It didn't happen. I know this is wrong but I blamed God. I thought he hated me so much that he took her away. I never meant to feel like this but it was how it felt. I sometimes still get upset over this
Anyway getting away from this topic I then went very anti Christian. I won't go into details I am sure you can have some idea about what I did. I am just sorry I ever done it. I want to put it right. When ever I saw a person giving out leaflets I used to rip them up in front of him/her. I even once said I wanted to go to Hell. I don't understand why I was like this cause of course I don't want to. I want to get back to the way I was. I want to be Christian again. I don't want to be evil anymore.
Is it too late or is there a way I can turn it around and if there is, is there a way I can keep my faith? I just want to be the way I was before. I am not making any of this up. I need to get it of my mind.
I want to become a Christian again. I wish I never went like this.
Thanks for reading. Please tell me how I can put this right.
Della