Suicidal Help

[cagransee08]

Hey, I've been severely depressed and anxious going on two years now. My voice has been very weak since March now, supposedly due to anxiety. I am trying my hardest to get on a normal sleeping schedule in the hopes that I'll be able to get a real full time job instead of working part time in retail and having to live off my parents. I just want to be "normal". This has caused me to be very suicidal because I feel worthless and like I'm a burden on everyone around me.

I'm asking for people's prayers and words of encouragement. Yes I see a Christian counselor and a psychiatrist and am meeting with my pastor later this week. I'm just looking for more support.

 

[J-Kay]

Those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and
not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. ~

Isaiah 40:31

 

[Searching4Truth]

Hey, I've been severely depressed and anxious going on two years now. My voice has been very weak since March now, supposedly due to anxiety. I am trying my hardest to get on a normal sleeping schedule in the hopes that I'll be able to get a real full time job instead of working part time in retail and having to live off my parents. I just want to be "normal". This has caused me to be very suicidal because I feel worthless and like I'm a burden on everyone around me.

I'm asking for people's prayers and words of encouragement. Yes I see a Christian counselor and a psychiatrist and am meeting with my pastor later this week. I'm just looking for more support.

I know that feeling all too well. Even despite constant attempts of them telling me that I'm worth something I still feel it. I tried getting myself killed a week or two back. It didn't work out. Which just shows I wasn't meant to go just yet. The degree of your feelings may be rougher, but remember those little moments of sanity and safety and cling on to them with everything you got. Do your best to push forward and see another day. Just hold on. I'll be hoping for you to live.

We (as much as we feel different about) still have a lot to offer to someone. And if you feel that isn't possible with the people you have present in your life now, then it may be reserved for those others you haven't met yet.

Keep your chin up, keep improving, keep getting stronger and keep learning.

 

[starfield]

Jesus is the greatest burden-bearer. Take all your burdens and worries to Him and He will lift them away. I will be praying for you.
"Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you" (1 Peter 5:7).

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[danschance]

I know there are times when it looks like we are in a dark tunnel that goes and on, but there is always light at the end. Keep on pressing forward and don't allow those lies to find a place in your heart.

You are of value. You are worthy. Don't listen to those thoughts which say otherwise.

 

[Amk2467]

You dont ever have to feel alone in this world because God is always there to help you and lift you up. Whenever you feel down or depressed, praise him, and it will be lifted. You don't ever have to worry about being left alone because no one in this world can make you as happy as God can with just one moment of your time. He will never forsake you or give up on you, if you just put out your hand for him to grab. When depression starts to strike, just pray, remember his works and the ways of his hand and joy will soon follow. I am always here if you need someone to talk to, just message me and we can go from there. God bless you!

 

[Jesus_lover_of_my_soul]

You will be in my prayers. Here is a bible verse that might encourage you.

Isaiah 40:29 He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

 

[Aqua_Girl09]

I was i a hole like that for years. . . .kinda still crawling out of it and i'm terrified that i might fall back down again. like it haunts me almost everyday . BUT i'm working my way out of it.

this might be the worse advice ever so if you think its a bad idea then plz don't listen. BUT, what helped me. . . .I just stopped caring about what people expected of me. i kinda gave life a "forget you" attitude and did the things that I wanted to do. It made me a LOT happier and i found my footing again. I'm focusing on the things that i want to do and what I want to get accomplished rather then what other people expect of me. i mean if i'm gonna go as far as to kill myself may as well do all those things you were scared to do at first. ^_^

I got into dancing (turns out i'm pretty good at it >_< ) and i started working out (which idk if anyone has told you but you feel like you can concur the freaken WORLD when you've actually done a good workout!)

if you've been stuck in the same place. . . .do something thats totally out of the norm (i would avoid something permanent like a tattoo) BUT something that might jump start your life and make you find your reason and drive for living again. ^_^

 

[hayliegrace]

I can relate very much to how you're feeling right now. I went through a stage a few years ago where I was very depressed and very anxious (especially about the future). In hindsight, I realised that in these times of feeling low I wasn't reading my bible or praying. I would really encourage you to rely fully on Jesus.. open your bible and ask the Lord to reveal something to you. I saw psychiatrists, psychologists, and doctors. Nothing helped. I was even on medication, which made everything worse. I began to get counseling with my pastor's wife, and she immediately led me to the Word. It wasn't immediate, but after perseverance and trusting in Him I am now out of all these things and all the bondage.

Back then, I never thought I would've made it out of that darkness, but Jesus fully pulled me out and lifted me higher than before. We have these trials to make us stronger.. the joy on the other side of a trial is so amazing. God is so good!

A verse that really encouraged me is Matthew 6:33-34. It says, "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." We don't need to worry about anything because God already has it all planned out!

Also, another one that was and is very comforting to me is Psalm 34:17-20. "When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken." He loves us and He will protect us. He never leaves our side.

God bless you, I will certainly be praying for you!

 

[xAlphaOmega]

I go through the same feelings of anxiety and depression so I relate to everyone here. I love helping out my brothers and sisters because as much pain as it causes me, it causes more pain to see others go through the exact same thing. It truly does. What i have realized though is that it will get better in due time. Time heals. But you also have to have faith AND change your mentality. The mind is very powerful. Just as it took time to get to your state of mind now, you can release your bondage of negetivity and worry with your thinking. If you are out of work or you have alot of spare time, I suggest becoming active. A mind that thinks alot, especially anxious minds tend to dwell, and dwelling is our enemy. Anxious minds are intelligent minds because we like to analyze and find a cure to our own problems. It is good in moderation as it helps us to think over our problems but dwelling on them will have a negetive impact. I suggest reading a book called 'The power of positive thinking' by Peale. Its a great book with simple concepts and even more its got Christian principals.

The biggest concept is you must believe. You must believe that good will come. I cant stress that enough. One thing you can do is write inspiring quotes or verses and place them in places where you will see them. Car dashboard, your bathroom mirror, bedroom wall, etc. It may sound cheesy but it works. Slowly your mind will transform to a positive thinking pattern and subconciously your thoughts will change from 'what if' to 'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me' or 'if God is for us, who can be against us'.

Abstain from any substances. Abstain from any friends who bring negetivity. Surround yourself with good things. Pray continually. Meditate and make time with God each day. Each day try to better yourself, create goals, write a journal, believe that each day you are making grounds on your struggles. Always keep busy. Believe. If you dont find improvement within even 2 weeks then I would be shocked. Then it may be time to try medication. Medication is only temporary but it can help get our life on track. Follow these things, ground yourself with God, and good will come. Oh and DO NOT GOOGLE stuff if you are the worry type.

 

[colalella2891]

You have support here. I will pray for you.

Also, just know that you aren't alone in this struggle. I think that everyone gets hit with anxiety and depression at some point in their lives, i've personally had my fair share. A few years ago I was very depressed. I would have such trouble sleeping, my eyes would be bloodshot and purple. I would also get weird panic attacks when I would try to go to sleep, so i'd be afraid to sleep. Most of the time i'd stay up all night. I also had suicidal thoughts. It happens to the best of us, but you will overcome.

Most importantly, don't give in.

 

[saydee]

I know this feeling - I've been there as well. Not going to get into details since I'm not comfortable talking about things right now but a lot of stuff happened and led into major depression and bulimia. Growing up in a christian household, my parents never understood what was going on and thought I wasn't praying enough, even told me I was too weak and just simply needed to toughen up - which made me feel more guilty about how I felt.
It took years and a lot of help to get out of this hole but things have become a lot better! Still fighting against my eating disorder every day, but don't we all struggle with something? In the end, God helps us overcome these dark phases and scars add to the complexity and hence the beauty of a person, showing that you didn't give up on yourself

I'll include you in my prayers and wish you all the best! Feel free to message me if you need any support!!

 

[Josh321]

don't worry everything will be ok, just put your complete trust in God and you will see, did you know these things actually happen to us so God can reveal himself to us? what i mean is when we realise we can't solve this problem ourselves and we try every single thing humanly possible to fill the hurt and it doesn't work it puts us in a state of desperation where we become desperate for anwsers, and this desperation leads us straight to christ and he will reveal himself in the situation and show you that he is always there, he did it for me and i'm possible he can do it for you and anyone, just put your complete trust in him and you will find peace

 

[Bushido8000]

Working in retail? No wonder you have anxiety/suicidal issues :/ that's not even a joke. I have learned that the hard way as I too have severe anxiety. That being said, I'm praying for you!

 

[TheAristocat]

Hey, I've been severely depressed and anxious going on two years now. My voice has been very weak since March now, supposedly due to anxiety. I am trying my hardest to get on a normal sleeping schedule in the hopes that I'll be able to get a real full time job instead of working part time in retail and having to live off my parents. I just want to be "normal". This has caused me to be very suicidal because I feel worthless and like I'm a burden on everyone around me.

I'm asking for people's prayers and words of encouragement. Yes I see a Christian counselor and a psychiatrist and am meeting with my pastor later this week. I'm just looking for more support.

Yep. It's that kind of economy. But, seriously, I don't know how much of your depression is caused by outside circumstances and how much is caused by your own body. Have you thought about researching medication and speaking to a doctor (not necessarily of psychiatry)?

 

[RedTent]

When you are attacked by lies about "ain't it just AWFUL" or that God isn't trustworthy for you, it is not from God. It isn't in your power to handle works of the devil like these are, but Christ has that power. We are to die to self and put on Christ, and Christ can handle it.

 

[hospitalpharmacist]

I pray You, our Lord and our Saviour, to take care of this suffering soul and send her Your beneficial consolation.

 

[RedTent]

Yep. It's that kind of economy. But, seriously, I don't know how much of your depression is caused by outside circumstances and how much is caused by your own body. Have you thought about researching medication and speaking to a doctor (not necessarily of psychiatry)?

Such good advise. Sometimes there is a chemical needed by the brain in order to function properly, and if the brain is supplied with that chemical it makes thinking clear.

It is also true that our emotions and thoughts changes the chemistry of our bodies. Everyone has heard of being on a winning streak. When we are winning, it makes chances of the next win more probable, and when we are down the chemistry of our bodies brings on more of the same.

God addresses this in Phil 4:8. Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable--if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise--dwell on these things.

 

[xAlphaOmega]

Such good advise. Sometimes there is a chemical needed by the brain in order to function properly, and if the brain is supplied with that chemical it makes thinking clear.

It is also true that our emotions and thoughts changes the chemistry of our bodies. Everyone has heard of being on a winning streak. When we are winning, it makes chances of the next win more probable, and when we are down the chemistry of our bodies brings on more of the same.

God addresses this in Phil 4:8. Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable--if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise--dwell on these things.

Now I agree that the mind over time will change chemicals based on thoughts. Seratonin, dopamine, norepinephrine are proven on science to be lower in depressed individuals- even anxious (since they are so closely related.). I believe the chemicals can be reversed over time as it took time to get there. But there is also so much power in the mind. I am reading a book now and one example of the power of the mind is illustrated in this story. It is one of MANY he uses as examples that we are what we think. We feel what we think in general. We are more successful when we are positive and driven- even when we have faith and not necessarily in God.

I read a story where some baseball players were on a losing streak, they were down, hopeless, no inspiration. The coach had a pastor come and 'bless' 2 baseball bats. Thats all the coach told them, that the baseball bats were blessed by a famous pastor. The team used these 2 bats in their games and went on to go undefeated and win their division. The mind is a powerful thing.

 

[nogard]

Hey, I've been severely depressed and anxious going on two years now. My voice has been very weak since March now, supposedly due to anxiety. I am trying my hardest to get on a normal sleeping schedule in the hopes that I'll be able to get a real full time job instead of working part time in retail and having to live off my parents. I just want to be "normal". This has caused me to be very suicidal because I feel worthless and like I'm a burden on everyone around me.

I'm asking for people's prayers and words of encouragement. Yes I see a Christian counselor and a psychiatrist and am meeting with my pastor later this week. I'm just looking for more support.

I'm assuming you are taking medication for this. If it doesn't seem to be working, check with your doctor to see if you can get a larger dose or maybe a different drug.