This a tough one. I could be looking at something at a certain way, but then in a couple of months I'll have a different understanding of the situation.
I'm hanging out with one of my closest friends when I read your post. I was curious to see what my faults were as well so I decided to take your advice and asked him. He's response,"Give me a day or two, to long to list at the moment." I started cracking up!
Back to the question, I don't have a specific story that's changed my outlook. My outlook has been changed since growing up. I believe it happens to everyone as they grow older. Its because my experiences with friends and family that I've been able to see different point of views in life. At times, they have made me so confused that I was confused about my my beliefs. Even then, there was always something in me that told me that Jesus was the way. There was no one else but Him.
Maybe I do have a story. This actually happened last year in March. I was a heavy smoker. Every now and then I would smoke pot. One day, I was smoking with one of my friends brother. After we finished, I felt something weird in me. My heart started beating faster, I started having blackouts, and was having an uneasy feeling to a point where I felt death was around the corner. I've done weed in the past, but it has never affected me in this way.
I went to the hospital. I could see that no one cared for me as much. They just thought I did some sort of drug and I was freaking out. While I was waiting there, I could see that they were having an emergency operation on someone. After a couple of minutes, I saw the doctor go to the waiting room, and told the person's family that she didn't make it. I could hear them starting to cry. At the moment. I wasn't even focusing on me anymore but on them.
In 2011, I lost one of uncles. I was there when he left us... So I could understand what the family was going through. While I was still waiting there, I overheard the lady's daughter talk on the phone. Turns out it was her mom that passed away. She said that they were at church and her mom was doing fine. Out of nowhere she fell down and had a heart attack.
This made me think a lot about my life. It made me realize how everyday is a blessing for us. We should appreciate everything we have. We don't know when we'll be gone, so its best to always forgive and not hold grudges against anyone as well.
It was about 2 months ago that I finally found out that the join was spiced up with cocaine. Every since I've had problems with my nerves on my face. Every now and then I get numbness in certain areas. At first it was very scary. I kept going to the hospital every other week. They told me it was anxiety. I thought it was a first, but I'm a real calm person. I don't freak out easily.
Up to this date, even though I get those weird nerve reactions on my face, I see it as a reminder on why I'm still alive. On why God has kept me here. I see things differently than I ever have before. I still have much growing up to do, but at least I'm going with a positive attitude towards everything I do. Many questions still linger in my thoughts about many things concerning God. But I pray every time that He shows me the way to the correct path.
You know what's funny? Two weeks before the event of me "smoking the join of death" I would speak to God heavily about Him giving me a sign that He was real. A sign that would make me realize how important He is and how much I need Him. What a coincidence huh
