possible failure

[tippb]

I feel as if I am a failure at life......I spent a few years in college and was not serious so I goofed around. At the age of 26 I got serious and I'm able to foster my way through college. I am taking a diploma program that is 8 weeks and in 3 to 4 years I'll be finished with ny bachelor's. I have had serious bouts of depression and I lost my brother in 2012. I am now 27 and I feel like a d failure because I'm jobless, my mother and I share a home, and I feel like a failure at life........I recently broke up with my ex because of his lies, cheating and general mistreatment of me. He feels he is better than me because he has a home and a good paying job as a truck driver......I feel less than nothing. I sometimes think of days to end my life. I try to thank God and count my blessings, but it seems he has also abandoned me.

 

[jogoldie]

You are definately not a failure...your back in college....you got away from a man who was sure to take you through bad times....
If you ask me you are on a great path....dont let the enemy make you feel different.....work will come.....God knows
your needs...He will provide....you just have to have faith that He will.....continue to fight the good fight....
And soon you will see the blessings God has waiting for you.....you are the.daughter of the most High God...
You cannot fail...because my young sister we already won.....your on an adventure that God himself has planned....
we must keep our heads up....and run to Him....and see what awaits us....
You can do this...your stronger than you think.....peace and love find you soon....jo

 

[Ugly]

I can relate tip.
I'm 38, uneducated, single and had to move back in with my dad do to financial problems, then health problems kept me here. I've struggled with depression since i was 14. But depression is a major issue that prevents many people from doing things and living life. It's good to keep in mind that the depression is what is likely holding you back. Not who you are.

 

[blue_ladybug]

I feel as if I am a failure at life......I spent a few years in college and was not serious so I goofed around. At the age of 26 I got serious and I'm able to foster my way through college. I am taking a diploma program that is 8 weeks and in 3 to 4 years I'll be finished with ny bachelor's. I have had serious bouts of depression and I lost my brother in 2012. I am now 27 and I feel like a d failure because I'm jobless, my mother and I share a home, and I feel like a failure at life........I recently broke up with my ex because of his lies, cheating and general mistreatment of me. He feels he is better than me because he has a home and a good paying job as a truck driver......I feel less than nothing. I sometimes think of days to end my life. I try to thank God and count my blessings, but it seems he has also abandoned me.

tipp, you are not a failure. You're going to college and trying to better yourself so that you can get a great job and be able to do what you want. I also have struggled with suicidal thoughts/attempts and depression since I was very young. If you go to the Miscellaneous forum, I wrote two threads on depression and suicide. I'd like to suggest you take a few minutes and read them both, because I think you would gain some hope and inspiration from them, as well as renew your desire to not give up on yourself. The titles are "Depression: A Ladybug's True Story of Dark vs Light" and "Suicidal Thoughts/Attempts and Loss of Loved Ones To Suicide." ​I chronicle my battle with these two subjects and how I made it through, and I suggest things that I do now to keep positive, and encourage others to do them too. If you want reasons to thank God and count your blessings, then please go read these two threads. God bless you.