Am I REALLY Valuable?

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_Mastermind77_

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I am a Christian, and although I know the Bible says I am "of more value than many sparrows" (Mat 10:31) and that God cares about me, I can't feel that love, and haven't for a while. I have a problem. A big one.
I am an 18 year old male, and my sinful lust is killing my relationship with God. I am at the point I don't feel anything at all. I used to read the Bible every day, and never masturbate or look at pornography, but now my situation is exactly the opposite. I have to force myself to read the Bible, and many days it never even enters my mind to do so. Without the connection between me and God through His word, I have no strength. My attempts to stay strong and not give into my lustful desires are pitiful at best, and even if I say "no" to the temptation, it will hit me harder in 30-60 seconds. I can't escape it. I love talking to people about Jesus, and evangelize almost every week, but I feel like a dirty hypocrite. I tell people that with God, we can overcome anything, yet I can't even stay pure for 24 hours.. I need advice. I need help. I need prayers.
I have been advised before to confess my struggle with a fellow Christian, and while I know this would work, I have no one to go to. I have a great family, but my biggest problem is also one of my biggest blessings: My brother.
My brother is the best Christian I know. He reads the Bible constantly, and if he could, he would only listen to sermons, read the Bible, and evangelize. He is a mental and spiritual powerhouse, and is about as perfect as a human can be. In my family, I am always the one who messes up. I repeatedly screw up in life. I am not as intelligent, not as compassionate, not as close with God, and I feel, not as good as he is. I know this is my prideful heart, but I just can't tell him or my family what is going on. I am already such a failure I couldn't bear the thought of them knowing just how useless I am. I don't know what to do.
The worst part of this is that I know if I don't fix my sinful life soon, it will get worse. I know I will eventually make the transition, without wanting to, into worse and worse sins that hurt other people too. I want.. I need to find God again.
Sorry about the long post.. I just don't know what else to do...
 
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PyroMatt

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I can relate to what you have gone through. I always felt like a hypocrite, people saw me as a christian, but never assumed I had problems like that. I constantly felt guilt about giving them encouragement, because of how terrible my spiritual state was at that time. Its important to remember that Jesus died on the cross for us, for everything we have done, and will do.

I'm constantly in prayer, because everyday Satan strikes, and in this day and age temptations are everywhere. Turn on the tv, there are scantily clad women dressed. The world loves these things, however we are not of this world. Whenever you seem something that tempts you and makes u lust, close your eyes and pray "God please cleanse my mind, and turn me away from these impure thoughts. I thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross for my sins. I thank you Jesus for interceding on my behalf."

Everyday it feels like spiritual warfare, but I can thank God that he has blessed my life with wonderful friends that I can stay in fellowship with. Gather fellow Christians and keep each other accountable. I will keep praying for you, and if you need someone to talk to message me, and I will try to be there for you. May God bless you. I know this is probably a hard topic for you to talk about.
 
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PyroMatt

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If u weren't valuable, Jesus would not have died on the cross for you. He loves you, he knows what you are going through, and everything you will go through. He made you go through these trials for a reason as well. There may be someone only you can reach one day that is going through the same issues as you right now. U will one day reflect on how you were in the past, and remind yourself that's who you were then, you are not like that anymore. U are saved and redeemed by the blood of Jesus
 
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_Mastermind77_

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PyroMatt said:
If u weren't valuable, Jesus would not have died on the cross for you. He loves you, he knows what you are going through, and everything you will go through. He made you go through these trials for a reason as well. There may be someone only you can reach one day that is going through the same issues as you right now. U will one day reflect on how you were in the past, and remind yourself that's who you were then, you are not like that anymore. U are saved and redeemed by the blood of Jesus
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Thank you. It's always encouraging to hear from other people who have gone through this before. There is nothing like a group of Christians working together to push away the power of temptation and sin. I pray anyone else who is dealing with this can find hope and strength in the knowledge that we are not alone. We are the Body of Christ. We are never alone. :)
 
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Malcyboy

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mastermind you are certainly not alone and even less so valueless, as previously mentioned Christ would not have died for someone who He thought was worthless and unlovable :)

I have sent you a pretty lengthly PM regarding some of this stuff, feel free to read and reply :D Cause your no different to many christians, and there are plenty, many who would probably deny it, have been or are in your situation and we want to help you get through it as well have you help us in our struggles!

God bless you MM, truly God loves you and has a plan for you
 
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