You keep missing something really, really important.
What's the name of this site? Christian Chat.
What do Christians have in common? Christ.
What are Christians supposed to do? Follow Christ.
What is following Christ? Seek after him, want what he wants, do what he does, follow his example, seek after that special change in the heart when he works his will into us towards his good, love God fully and love others.
What do you do? Glory in yourself, repeatedly.
Sorry. I know my story. I know where I missed it. I'm learning where I missed it again. I really cannot glorify self because there was/is nothing in me worth glorifying, so I'll stick with following Christ because there is everything in him worth glorifying.
I'm not here for your approval. Nor are you here to be approved. I keep praying you get that. The problem is I'm not a very good pray-er and my heart is really toward praying for Evan, whose daughter Hanna is dying. My heart is more towards praying for Blaine who is in a life threatening position but is still loving God. My heart is for Teresa and Syd, who think God can't possibly forgive them, but he can and has already done so. My heart is for a lovely sister, who has a small chip on her shoulder. My heart is for a woman who probably already made a very bad decision and will be spending the rest of her life regretting it and thinking God can't possibly love her still. And if she hasn't made that decision, she will be terrified for the next couple of years waiting for the other shoe to drop. My heart is for Dad who is having the worse time realizing he has dementia, because dementia doesn't give room for realizing its there when you have it. My heart is for my brother who has to make all decisions for Dad yet cannot because of some very stupid laws. My heart is for my family. So I am praying for you, but it's very hard to do so when you're so sure you're the only one God has already perfected. Why burst a delusion bubble when I know after it's burst you're going to have a tough time in life so God can rebuild you? It's tough praying that one when I see people working so hard for things they cannot control.
God didn't build this You up. You did, using God's building blocks. The structure is baseless, since it revolves around you. I can only pray God destroys and then rebuilds revolving around him. Knowing so many people with hard problems, it's tough getting the strength to ask God to unbubblewrap you. Unfortunately, you're not much benefit to a community of God followers while you continue to boast on the perfectionism of you.