For the last month i have been battling with trying to remember my childhood memories. All my memories before the age of 12 years old are totally gone. Thee are none to recall. For the last 40 + years i have been searching for these memories.
I finally found out why these memories are gone, lost forever. My sister finally told me why i have no memories.
When i was around 10 years old i was being molested by a neighbor. He had molested me over and over again for a year. I guess it finally destroyed me because one day i just completely withdrew from everything. They say i would not eat, or sleep or even respond to anything.
Nothing helped to bring me out of this state i was in. The doctors and my parents thought it would be best to do ECT therapy on me. What they did was to totally fry my brain with electricity to destroy these memories.
Now i'm damaged goods.
Because of being molested i am also Gay.
Again i'm damaged goods....sigh.
I finally found out why these memories are gone, lost forever. My sister finally told me why i have no memories.
When i was around 10 years old i was being molested by a neighbor. He had molested me over and over again for a year. I guess it finally destroyed me because one day i just completely withdrew from everything. They say i would not eat, or sleep or even respond to anything.
Nothing helped to bring me out of this state i was in. The doctors and my parents thought it would be best to do ECT therapy on me. What they did was to totally fry my brain with electricity to destroy these memories.
Now i'm damaged goods.
Because of being molested i am also Gay.
Again i'm damaged goods....sigh.