I totally get it Innerfire89 and am aware it's a touchy subject because not everyone is healed for many reasons. Not everyone is taken care of for many reasons. I don't know them all. But I'm not supposed to look at people when it comes to my faith walk and measure Jesus according to me or people or our experiences.
I'm supposed to look at Jesus when it comes to faith and walking in His righteousness and not my own righteousness. My responsibility is to believe regardless of what is at my right side or my left side. Not what I think or what others think.
Regardless of what the world., the flesh and the devil say and do. I also have asked the same question you said here IF89 but not only about healing. I believe in healing the same as other promises in the Bible that Jesus died to give us. Dare I believe? I came to this late in my life well into my 50s.
Dare I believe that IN Christ I am loved completely and have been made whole in His sight? Dare I believe He will take care of me like it says in Psalm 91 for instance? What? a thousand my fall at my side and 10,000 at my right hand but it will not come nigh unto me??? Dare I believe that?? What if it doesn't happen that way for me? I don't even go there brother. I'm not supposed to even go there. None of us are.
We are to believe and trust Him by grace through faith to do as He said He would do just like we did when we believed Jesus saves. We walk by faith one day at a time. He gives us one day at a time to do this. He gives us enough grace for each day. He instructs us to not live in the area of "what if" and not to worry about tomorrow for that has problems of it's own.
That is my journey and I dared to believe Him and trust Him to take care of me and He did it and He continues to do it. That is a choice we each as believers have to make ourselves. My journey to believe will be different than yours or others here. My issue was security as a divorced woman with no income or any earthly hope for it. Today I have a house in the country and a job because Jesus the Good Shepherd took care of me when I dared to trust Him with my life.
Stepping out in faith daring to believe is what we are called to do. Trusting He will do what He says is about faith in His love and grace paid for completely by Jesus. His righteousness was imputed to us and we are loved unconditionally because of Jesus. When I walk that out one day at a time., I have not been disappointed. No one is disappointed who trusts Him to do as He says He will do. "Those who trust Him wholly will find Him wholly true."
Read Psalm 23 because it is not for the dead but the living. I love this Psalm in the Amplified Bible. I like the footnotes too that speak of the Holy Spirit here on Bible gateway. I discovered the Holy Spirit has a lot to do with this faith that springs up in us John 7:38 he who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, From his innermost being shall flow rivers of living water.
[SUP]1 [/SUP]The Lord is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
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2 [/SUP]He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still
and restful waters.
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3 [/SUP]He refreshes
and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him—not for my earning it, but] for His name’s sake.
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4 [/SUP]Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear
or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.
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5 [/SUP]You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with [SUP][
a][/SUP]oil; my [brimming] cup runs over.
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6 [/SUP]Surely
or only goodness, mercy,
and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.
Footnotes:
- Psalm 23:5 It is difficult for those living in a temperate climate to appreciate, but it was customary in hot climates to anoint the body with oil to protect it from excessive perspiration. When mixed with perfume, the oil imparted a delightfully refreshing and invigorating sensation. Athletes anointed their bodies as a matter of course before running a race. As the body, therefore, anointed with oil was refreshed, invigorated, and better fitted for action, so the Lord would anoint His “sheep” with the Holy Spirit, Whom oil symbolizes, to fit them to engage more freely in His service and run in the way He directs—in heavenly fellowship with Him.