It's been many weeks. But I couldn't escape the haunting presence of emptiness today when I woke up. It's one of those days again when you refuse to open your eyes because you know, everything's the same. You're alone. I'm alone.
Somedays I embrace it completely. Comes with it is freedom to be what God has called me to be. Freedom to make mistakes before God without disappointing anyone else. Freedom to take responsibility of my own actions and decisions.
But on days like
I have been praying for a few people's salvation for the last month. I've been holding on to this promise of God, whenever I prayed: Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. (Mark 11:24)
However, every time I prayed, I struggled with unbelief. I couldn't believe that I have received the answer to my prayer because I was praying for someone else's salvation. I knew that it is the will of God that none should perish (2
I woke up today, overwhelmed by the awareness of the presence of a distant God. It hasn't been so long since I felt Him so close to me, listening to every beat of my heart.
I opened my eyes only to be blinded by the emptiness surrounding me. And in an instant, loneliness came rushing in like a flood. It hasn't been so long since I felt so content, having only Jesus by my side.
I got up to take a walk. But I was so burdened by the weight of apathy in my heart that I couldn't
There comes a time in your life, when you just get tired of trying to figure things out. You get weary that things don't go your way. Circumstances lead to disappointments and heartbreaks. Hope becomes hopelessness, faith becomes doubt, and joy becomes sadness.
It's a tough time.
Wrestling your way out of where life led you, struggling to make sense of everything.
It's a tough time.
And you start wondering, "Where is God?" You start
And I am a mess right now. I was a WoWaholic - addicted to World of Warcraft. I am an adult (or so I thought) and I am working. I have lots of free time and I started playing World of Warcraft towards the end of last year. Ever since then, my life changed for the worse. I'm not saying this game is evil. I'm just the type of person that easily gets influenced by others. I played for hours on end with friends I met online until I started to notice the effects it did on me: Health issue. Last year