If you are an atheist you don't believe in any of that nonsense!
I understand how much like nonsense that all this looks like from a purely worldly perspective. I even felt that way to an extent while claiming I was Christian and wearing a cross around my neck. I really liked the idea of Jesus, but to be honest I had “real life” to deal with. I didn’t really think too much about the talking snake, global flood, Red Sea splitting, virgin birth, etc., etc.. I thought this was just a good way to live our lives by, and were just general rules to live by. I was my own God at this point and really never took any time away from my TV show, Movies, Video games, and endless list of other ungodly distractions this modern world throws at us daily to look into it.
I was doing good in worldly terms too. I remember one day leaving work and thinking, “Wow, I have all my credit cards paid off, I am leaving my awesome job to hop on my motorcycle, going home to my beautiful wife and 2 awesome kids, and she’s making my favorite dinner (zuppa toscana). Man I had life whooped, life is good, look at all
I’ve done. I woke up in the hospital 2 ½ weeks later with my right (dominate) arm completely useless, never to work again. You want to talk about confused? I didn’t understand at all what I had done to deserve this hardship.
Long story short (and my testimony is posted here under
My testimony to Gods glory in my life. It's long but worth a read. For full details) I went on a downward spiral at that point. It got worse and worse to the point I wanted nothing more than death period. I also had an arm I could slit my wrist and not even have to feel it (the brachial plexus nerve was unplugged form the spine). The only thing that kept me from killing myself was my 2 sons. I knew that no one could love them or take care of them like their father (just like us as I would learn later), and I just couldn’t leave them with that baggage like that. I was STUCK here.
I didn’t go to a preacher, or church, or even pick up my bible. To be honest when I was in church I was bitter, the preacher would say “raise your hands”, and in my head I was thinking “I can’t raise my #$&%ing hand’s thank you very much”. I thought I was a Christian before so I felt I had already done all that Christian stuff before, now look at me. The day I was regenerated I did break though, and broke completely. I didn’t cry out His name or anything like that, I didn’t even do this in prayer (I wasn’t a big prayer before at all, or even a Christian for that matter looking back) but I hit my knees baling my eyes out knowing I’d never get back what I lost, not just my arm everything I thought I was as a person my whole life. I was a scrapper, a roofer, a tree climber, and in good shape, that was all gone now. I hit my knees and this is all I said, “ I just can’t do this anymore” x10, “World you win and I quit. I can’t do this anymore”.
That was when the “nonsense” was revealed to me, and I woke up the next morning a changed man. No more suicidal thoughts 27/7, no obsessing over my arm 27/7, I felt so much better and almost new. I didn’t even know why or even put together what happened for about a week. Once I realized that all this “nonsense” was literally true and I had been saved by the creator of everything, I was in shock and over the next couple months I was just trying to come to the complete realization that God was real and this world was the “nonsense”. I tell you there is much more to this world than we are raised to think, and just because “scientist say” something doesn’t make them right about everything, and just because we are conditioned to think belief in God is ridiculous from birth doesn’t make it so. Even at 64 He still loves and wants you and if you can submit your pride and will to His, you can be in shock it’s all NOT “nonsense” after all too.
