spontaneous act in church today

So I have been working on moving into my sisters house in a new area and have been here a few days getting used to everything and yesterday knew today was sunday I saw three churches in walking distances going on my walks and figured if I could sleep well and wake up in time go to church on sunday.
Granted I didn't that well but i did wake up pretty early so I got ready and headed out, the church I chose to go to is a small one with many elderly people and some younger people it's not fancy or anything but upon entering and meeting some people I learned that the church was going through some harsh times, several ppl in there lost loved ones and several people there also are going through very harsh times lots of medical issues visits to the hospital ect.

Everyone there despite this was very friendly and nice to me, I sat during the sermon the praise the communion but about half way through I felts something inside me. Before I go into that I want you all to know that everyday I tell God to use me I always let him know that I am willing that my heart my soul my will my blade is his to command and I think this is why what happened today happened.

You see upon the church service nearing it's end I walked up to the pastor to request doing something I have never done in my entire life and that is to speak to the church on the stage. I am shy and timid by nature never once have I ever spoken to a group of people with their eyes on me let alone simply by spontaneous calling for the holy spirit, and so I stood in front of them all and as you ll know I speak from my heart and God is the words. I knew the pain they were all feeling I could sense it all around me I told them how I more so than a lot of people know pain I know what sadness is I said I don't want to go into great detail but my life and my story is not a pretty one it's one of pain and sadness but then I said however it's because of all I went through that I can connect and understand those who have experienced the same things.

I went on saying the human body experiences pain but it's the inner wounds the inner scars the inner bleeding that is the hardest to heal and huts the most, I continued saying that it wasn't through the easy times and the times when I never experienced pain that I connected with God the most, it was in the times when I was in pain when I was alone in my tears that I clung to God the most that I felt him holding me the most that he and I grew the most, again I continued saying I have never lost a loved one before but I knew someone who did God the father. Him being the first parent knew that pain knowing that the deeper the love not the love that the human heart knows but the love that comes from God's heart alone the deeper the pain then went on saying Jesus knew more than any of us that love hurts and finished saying that it's going to hurt losing loved ones going through the hard times but know that it's in those times that God is with us the most.

I didn't expect any of this I had no idea that upon waking today I would end up going on stage allowing God to speak through me in a church I have never been to and speaking to people I never met before simply because my heart was willing God wanted to use me without thinking about it without fear or worry my body just acted before I knew what I was doing I was walking up to the pastor to request speaking to them. At the end of my speech the entire church applauded and I could that God did exactly what I desire deeply to do as a Christian I saw a spark made in all these peoples hearts something was there in that church in those peoples hearts that was not there before today a fire was ignited.

Some people came to me afterwards in tears telling how moved they were how wise I am even though I told them it wasn't my own wisdom and that it wasn't my words I spoke. Again I am simply astounded at God right now

Well done Blain for allowing God to continually use you to help others. God is good all the time!

Amen and praise the Lord. So often people think pain and loss is a discouragement, rather than an opportunity for God to show us His love and support through the battles of life. The Lord does not call us to not see or experience these things, but to know love does conquer all.

Blain, well done brother, thankyou for ministering to these people. So many need to here about overcomers, who have been there and come out the other side. In society now so many are ashamed to the struggles, rather than they help us become what we are in the Lord.

The Lord took us on, with all our craziness, gave His life and forgave all the most ugly evil people in the world and even betrayal of his friend Judas, and came out the other side to purchase us into His kingdom.

There is so much strength in weakness, and just letting go and letting God. People use this often in the wrong context, you today have used it in the right context, so Amen again, and thankyou for listening to the Holy Spirit working within you, very encouraging.

Good job!

A word fitly spoken
is like apples of gold in settings of silver.
Proverbs 25:11

Best thing is that I love you always give God the glory. I've hardly ever seen you go, "Look at this thing I did all by myself." You're always pointing up, and that is so important

Well I honestly can't take credit even if I wanted to, like I said I am timid and shy by nature I would never in a million years go on stage in front of people like that let alone a group of people I don't know and in a church I have never been to it was literally an act of God.

Looking back at this I hope he intends to use me in more ways like this more often not only do I feel that it was a leap of faith kind of thing but how it impacted everyone how God reached into their hearts in a way that might not have had happened had I not woken up on that day and told God in my heart use me as you will that made the most impact on me.
I'm sure everyone knows this about me already but I am one who desires to encourage to uplift to build and to strengthen I am one who deeply desires the gift of healing but not having it however I am more interested in the healing of the inner wounds and scars of a person.

These are my constant prayers and conversations with him I often tell him these things often times say to him how I want so bad for him to do this for people even if it isn't me he is using to do so but that sunday he didn't just do all that I have asked and spoken to him about but he used me to do it. If there was ever an answered prayer in the heat of the moment in my life this would be it, and I kind of get a feeling this also was a kind of test to see if my heart would react to his calling to see if I would be true to my words when I told him my heart my will my blade is yours to command and I kind of feel that if this was a test not only did he and I pass but I think it opened a door in which he intends to lead me through.

I don't know what is in this door but I know it's a deeper walk with him