Frustrated

This is my first time to post and I've got some serious battles going on and my faith has been in question. Am I a true believer? I went through cancer treatment and have lost everything. I used to make great money and have a beautiful life, family, etc. Now I have nothing.

I know your going through a lot my brother. I never had cancer, but I have been very ill at one time.
I have lost a lot in my life. Some self inflicted, some not.

But I never said I had nothing.
We have God. That is everything !

Brother hold on! I know how it can be very frustrating praying for things for several years even a decade and God still doesn't seem to answer......I'm holding on barely but still holding onto God, I pray this encourages you as I have never had cancer but know people who have had it and it takes a very hard toll on the body emotionally and physically. As someone who has been frustrated with God sometimes I can tell you to just hold on as best you can....Life can be very rough at times but remember Christ died for you and loves you....this is what I tell myself to keep going....

Oh sweetie...
I'm so sorry...
I can relate through going through cancer. I've gone through it twice. It sucks.
I lost having my father, 2nd step mom, mom and step father in my life.
Losing family and things suck, and let me tell you,
When things go drastically downhill it's so incredibly hard to stay strong in faith.

I can not answer your question of am I a true believer, only you and God can answer that but the fact that you are here posting this is a very good start.


We can never fully get away and have the serinity and strength to get through this world if we don't completely LET GO.
Of troubles and pain and tears.
It's hard. I'm not gonna lie and say I've done it, but it's not impossible, and that is how you are going to get through these battles.

Life isn't gonna be easy, but God will give you the strength to make through all of them if you open up your heart to let Him.


The trials and pain and heartache in this world lead to a world with no tears or sorrow.

The chemo, assuming you had it, can sometimes have such debilitating effects on the body, soul and the mind too.
There is even such a thing called chemo brain.
I will pray for you.

Many people lose faith when things go badly. It's often due to a misunderstanding of who God is and what He said. The biggest misconception is that God's will for our life is to always be happy and healthy and everything go right. But God never promised that. Even His own son, perfect and sinless, faced betrayal, temptation, mockery, abuse, torture and a brutal death.

I'm sorry you've gone through this. I have been through a good many things myself. But our faith in God is to be in God 24/7, regardless of our circumstances, and not only when things are going how we think they should.

I don't know if I'm doing this right but there's no way I can share what all I'm going through but the response to my original post were so sweet. I'm honestly not knowing how or what to say or do. Before cancer my life seemed perfect. I was a District Manager for a national sign company making very good money. No money is not everything but it is necessary. My wife left me when I was at my worst point during treatment. She took everything while I was in the hospital fighting pneumonia 105 temperature, blood transfusion, the works. I ended up in a homeless shelter with nothing. Horrible place. Well I meet someone on Facebook, you know friend of a friend type thing. Well she said I could stay with her. I hope you can imagine my eagerness to remove myself from that place. I'm not a bad looking man and she's not a bad looking woman but having a relationship was the last thing on my mind. She says she is a Christian but you could have fooled me. So tonight for example we watched Miracles from Heaven. After the movie she practically attacked me and I in no way in agreement with any type of sexual encounter with her or anyone else. So tomorrow I will probably be homeless again. I honestly believe God hates me and I'm certain that I deserve it. The only thing preventing me from taking my own life right now is the fear of going to hell. I have evenough thought of suicide by cop. Pretending to have a gun so they shoot me. I've never been violent and never owned a gun. I have had a drug problem so I am in no way innocent so it would be justified whatever happened. I have no one to talk to about this. I sleep on the couch and she has an eleven year old daughter. I saw on her phone that she is on a dating site called POF which is well known for being a hook up site. One nighters. It not only scares me but seriously grosses me out too. I don't know what to do and seriously want to die. I'm sick of my life and totally wish God would pull the plug. I'm having such a hard time seeing him as being a loving God. Man I wish I could transiate this into something more accurate to how I'm feeling. If I don't make it through the night please pray for my soul. Please pray that God would take me and receive me. I hope to see all of you in heaven someday. I'm honestly having a very difficult time. God bless you all.

Read my cancer, depression and suicide threads below in my signature. Then come back and tell me what you've learned. Go on, get a move on and go read..