Justly Fired....feeling so ashamed

So for the past week id been working as a baby sitter for a new family and yesterday I was let go in a violent and terrifying way. Namely the husband threw my stuff on the street and called me every name in the book kind of way. I just sat there the whole time staring, like it was some nightmare. The point was I wasnt taking my babysitting job as seriously as I thought I was. To me what I did wasn't bad but the parents didn't see it that way. And in the end it wasn't ok. Now I'm depressed and disgusted with myself. Idk what to do or how to fix it. I'm just so wishing and hoping this was all a bad dream a nightmare but I just woke up and remembered. I want to cry but the tears won't come. And to make things worse I claim to be a follower of Christ. Yet I got fired for falling asleep on the job and letting the baby sleep too much. All these things like I said didnt seem bad at the time untill it all came to a head yesterday. You guys I know I'm new here but I need someone who gets what it's like I fail miserably while your a Christian and resist the urge to hide under a couch for the rest of my life. Im scared and sad and disgusted idk how to feel I hate myself.

Well basically yeah. They said I wasn't playing with the baby enough. I held the baby while he slept and laid down with him. From the camera it looked like I was sleeping but I was only dozing. I was aware of him the whole time but apparently I was keeping him up all night with all the naps...I've never seen anyone so mad at me before it was scary.

The parents should have told you what times or how often they wanted the baby to sleep. I'd doze with my babies once and a while. They could've handled it a lot better. Throwing your stuff out on the street was stupid. The Dad sounds like he has issues. If you feel he's violent towards that baby in any way I'd talk to CPS about it. I'm sorry that happened to you.

Well the thing was they did...that's what's so confusing. They said he sleeps for an hr in the mornings and has a few more twenty min naps throughout the day then sleeps in the afternoon anywhere between an hour and a half to two and a half hours. But they say it's cause of me he's been up awake at night and maybe it is but I just thought...idk.

Bless their ignorant hearts lolol. Well, they're about to get educated.

Normal. Failure is a part of being a Christian. You're not perfect. Paul, who wrote most of the New Testament, said of himself 'i do what i do not want to do'. Basically he was saying 'i'm always screwing up'.
How to handle it? Acknowledge it, allow yourself to feel Some regret, learn from it, put it behind you. God's intention is not to let our failures and mistakes put us down and keep us down. That is Satan using your failures against you. If you want to handle things the way God intended, then acknowledge, learn, move on and Never berate yourself. Live in God's conviction and grace, not in Satans guilt and condemnation.

He's a baby, some will sleep very well at night some won't. My Son would take naps and still sleep pretty well at night, unless he was sick or teething. My Daughter had colic, she'd sleep for an hour and wake up screaming. Some people expect babies to do their will, especially people who thought they knew everything about babies before they had them. The truth is when you have a baby you're not going to sleep well for the next 20 years or so.


Babies grow into toddlers, the definition of a toddler: small person who doesn't understand boundaries.

Then you get a child. Definition of a child: You have to get me to sleep, I will probably crawl into bed with you at some point and I'll be up by 5 Am.

Pre teen: I'll go to bed but let me argue with you about taking a shower and brushing my teeth first. Oh and by the way when I can't find everything I've lost at 7 Am on Saturday I'm waking you up.

Teenager: I will sleep for hours, but the nights I want to go out you'll be up until curfew worrying about me.



Please don't beat yourself up Unknown.

Thank you.....Im trying to just put it behind me but it makes me want to cry. Thank you guys.

Four months old

The dad seems to be a hot head.. Don't let his outburst cause you to question yourself.. He most likely treats all that way.. His actions are too extreme for a level headed person.. even if you were dosing.. you didn't hurt the child

Some of my most embarassing angry moments were when I worked nights and then took care of the kids during the day. I wasn't getting much sleep and my patience level was super low.

My 'outbursts' or 'episodes' weren't really because of whatever set me off but just because I was generally angry about not sleeping. It seems like I didn't sleep until the kids were about 5 or 6. But when they were babies up to about 2yrs old it was the worst.

I feel bad for everyone involved, but I get it. I wish I was never like that. There was no excuse.

1 Peter 2:25 [FONT=&quot]For ye were as sheep going astray; but are now returned unto the Shepherd and Bishop of your souls.[/FONT]