Feel so guilty

I was fired from my job in March. And since then my family has struggled financially. I haven't been able to find another full time job making anything close to what I was. And to make it worse I have a shopping addiction which got more out of hand during this time. Over the last couple months I have been doing better with the shopping but the hole we are in is so deep I'm afraid we may end up losing everything. And anytime our children struggle with money or says they want something and I know we can afford it and it is all my fault. This guilt is tearing apart our marriage but I don't know how to let it go.

self-discipline is a must in our daily lives, especially when we call ourselves adults -
we have to learn to act as adults and the real 'tell' is, are we making our decisions
based on what our Heavenly Father expects of us?, do we care if He cares?
if we are in dis-obedience, then we will always 'reap' what we sow if it goes against
Heavenly, Spiritual Rules...

I pray that God provides you with suitable employment and to allow you to see that it is best to be prudent in your finances, especially the shopping addiction. Despite how difficult it is to let go of what transpired in the past you have to do this for the sake of your marriage and peace of mind. I have prayed for God to deliver you from the dire circumstances that are surrounding you. Glad to have you as part of our family. Welcome to CC.

It’s really sad & I can understand you pain of losing job & feeling so guilty over the requirements that you are unable to fulfill for your family & children. I can just pray for you May God give you a job of your dream that will fulfill your & your family’s needs.