I do not have a problem with people, as long as they are listening, it is when
their lips move that it all goes to pot.
If you were ever single in your 20's and then got married you will know
compromise comes hard. Inside ones head everything is fine, and whatever you
do is the way it should be done.
Come face to face with another style, or that is not like "I" want it, OCD kicks in.
One of my daughters, when they were a few months old liked everything to be the
same as it always was the day before. One small change and they wanted to know
why. It was probably insecurity, linked to I am safe if nothing moves.
So I think naturally we know change is a threat, the unknown. One girl who is quite
autistic, is find if people explain everything about who is in the room and why, and what
is going to happen.
And when you learn each person looks out of their eyes just like I do, and wonders what
the day might bring, with a little bit of fear and worry.
When we walk with Christ and put our trust in Him, and pain no longer matters, we expect
it, and know His healing, so much changes. But it is hard, it is where walking with an
open heart begins. To get Christ and the cross inside is complex and unexpected.
I was once enthusiastic about sharing and being open, sat next to this lady and talked about
the wonder of Christ and his message. She had just lost her husband, 8 weeks before.
So out of this pain, she spoke, in a way I knew the pain, and how she felt I was wrong, but
not in words. I felt hurt and closed up. Opps. I should have reached out and given comfort
and met her need, but I did not understand what was going on.
Now 20 years on, we have shared, and she knows our love.
But it is a hard road to walk, to mourn with those that mourn and rejoice with those that rejoice.