Though we fall, we shall not be utterly cast down, for the Lord upholdeth him with His hand. (Psalm 37:24).
(Isaiah 43:2):
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
It is not easy to find your way to God in a sudden crisis unless you have been in the habit of going to God about everything. The thing that rationalism ridicules is not a man praying to God when he is in distress, but a man praying to God when he is not in distress.
To the rationalist it is ridiculous to pray to God about everything; behind the ridicule is the devil to keep us from knowing the road when the crisis comes.
Jesus tells us plainly that He is the way, the truth, and the life for us all; and that he is here to prosper us and not harm us, to give us hope and a future. And that this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in His Son. He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life. God has many promises to claim in Him.
But realize this too: if you have not yielded to Him yet, He is calling you...The nature of a crisis is that it takes you unaware, it happens suddenly, and the line you take reveals your character. A crisis does not make character (only Christ in you can use a crisis to make your character stronger in Him, as you walk thru it with Him); a crisis reveals character. Ask yourself: "Why am I holding on to things I need to surrender to God? What good has it been to hold a grudge against God?"
God Bless you richly my friend, I will pray for God to heal, and I will pray God will invest as He has already been investing - in the character of yourself to be able to stand in His grace in all things at all times in confidence and in His peace.