why am I hurting and so sad

Hurting and need to make sense of it
When I was 16 I lost my brother he was 20, then when I was 30 I lost another brother he was 25 , next 2 years I lost my husband of 10 years and 2 years after that I lost my only sister and 5 years ago I lost my oldest brother. I still have my parents but no more siblings and I have a 30 year old son and 26 year old daughter. my daughter her four kids (my grandkids) and my grandkids dad live with me. Although my daughter and the father of her kids are not together anymore, I still allowed him to lived with us because he had no otjer family here and his kids where very close to him , the boy twins are 10, my granddaughter is 9 and youngest grandson is 8, he was very good with them up until about a little over a year ago when he started seeing a girl at his work, noe she's pregnant and due next month, I always had high hopes he would fix his family with my daughter but seems now that can never happen. He tells me yesterday that he is going to be moving out when the girl has the baby (which is a girl) I told him he is going to hurt his kids that have known him all their lives, threeife they know bow will be destroyed because of his choices, he just says that they will adjust and that he can not leave his newborn baby daughter without a father. But yet isn't that what hes doing to his 9 year old daughter that's use to him being here at home, she's a daddy's girl and he doesnt seem to care that he's leaving her for a new daughter, or his sons. By the way he also has another 9 year old daughter he had when him and my daughter where together and a 8 year old son he had after that one. which is one of the reasons him and my daughter are not together. so this new girl is the 4th baby mama. knowing how he is and what he's going to do to my grandkids hurts me a lot, I feel so sad, I keep crying because he's goon g to leave and my grandkids will be hurt and think that they didn't mean enough to him, and my granddaughter especially is going to hurt because he's leaving her because he's getting a new baby girl. am I being dumb to feel hurt? do you think I feel hurt because I've already lost so many people that I don't want to lose more? or is it because I know what it feels like to lose someone, that i dont want my grandkids to feel hurt like that? i havent even told my daughter because i know shell be hurt but will hide it and won't admit it. I can't make sense or process what I'm feeling. I use to pray that he'd leave that girl because she's bout a good person and shed would take his time away from the kids but now with her pregnant I know she's going nowhere. what I don't understand is that he's neglected his other 2 kids from 2 previous affairs but they never knew him and now is going to abandon these 4 kids he's known all their life and give all his time and effort and love to this new baby, how does God allow someone to do that( hurt all these kids but yet keep having more)?

I don't know what to tell you, other than I hope there is an especially BAD corner of Hell for people that voluntarily and knowingly hurt children like that....

and, if that is his attitude about his children, they are better off, in the long run, without him in their lives, IMO.

My stepdaughter's dad did her that way.... although there was a divorce, he CHOSE to not see her at all. Willingly.

he is evidently allowing satan to run his life, perhaps with him gone,
the chain will be broken...

If I thought the OP was going to log in and check this or respond I'd spend some time writing a nice response and providing scripture....Highly doubt this will happen.

I have told him that before, he just thinks I don't know what I'm saying. He use to think he was being punished for abandoning his 2 kids from other relationships, and was starting to do better with his 4 kids he lives with here, then all of sudden once he met this girl which was actually a minor when he started seeing her ( i didn't know that till a year later when she turned 18) he started changing, he no longer spent much time with his kids, he didnt want to reach out to the kids he abandoned back then and he started spending more time away from home and his kids, i would tell him that he was fling everything Satan wanted him to do and he said No that God blessed him with this new girl and he wasn't going to ruin it. He sees it as if God didn't want him with this girl and a new baby to start a new family, then he wouldn't have blessed him with them.

what is op?

Your step daughter lucky to have you. Some people say Karma will take care of it but with all the kids hes abandoning and being self centered and getting things his way, i don't see Karma stepping in yet.

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