LOL You thinking you're not rational, is like me thinking I'm quiet. LOL
You're very rational. The problems come when the rational becomes so focused it's like focusing a magnifying glass to one pinpoint spot, which then becomes combustible. Some people see the connection between a few things and paint a broad picture. Some take the same things and paint a close up. You're closer to the latter. (So am I.) Except your closer up sometimes goes molecular, leaving many people wondering how you got there. BUT you can't do that without being rational.
You really are different than most, but that's a good thing usually. (I worry when you get to the point where you can see the world ending today. Not necessarily because the world might actually end today, but that you get stuck there and can't see a reason to finish out the day.) Einstein, Edison, and Zuckerberg are names the world has come to know because they were/are like you -- different. There is room for different. If there was no different, we'd probably never have enjoyed pre-sliced bread.
So thank you for being on CC too.