its probably no big deal but i am going through a spiritual crisis, you see i have obtained my addiction to video games again and i have trouble spending time with god and when i do this is what happens i pray but i can't seem to make a connection, usually when i pray i can talk all day with him but now its just hard. i listen to christian music and i feel heavy inside. i am actually glad i am going through this because we only really grow in hard times. but something happened that scared me, i watched a movie about antichrists of today- basicly satanic killers and making deals with the devil and such but then something happened my head. you see i am so desperate for god to make a change in my life, i ask god sometimes do you know how happy it would make me to be out helping the needy everyday? i would drop everything i was doing just for a chance to be out helping peope in need and serving god. as i wad watching this movie thought came to mind but i refuse to believe they were my thoughts, thoughts of making deals with the devil and eating flesh like in the movie and it terrified me and i rebuked them. and after the movie was over they were gone but i think they devil senses my desperate need for change and my spiritual crises so he wanted to see just how desperate i was. i am just wondering what is going on? do i feel heavy from christian music from guilt? and why has god not let me help the needy? i so desperately want to help and serve,am i maybe not doing enough in my own home or something?
Just because you are saved, doesn't keep the devil from talking to you. He talked to Jesus. He
wanted Jesus to fall down and worship him. The devil isn't going to go light on any of us.
And if you want to help someone, the Salvation Army has people at most stores collecting money to
help others, this time of year. Just walk up and drop a dollar in. Many times, grocery stores ask if
you would like to buy an item for donation to the needy. Buy a can or two. You could make a
donation to Smaritan's Purse. It might be a little late now, but they have a shoe box program that
delivers items to needy kids around the world, this time of year. Smaritan's Purse (spelling?) is a good
organization. They help out around the world. Some people plant, others harvest, they all share
in the work and all get rewarded. Some people have the time and skill to go out and dig a well, for
a community in a third world country, but they need money to accomplish it. People who donate
and those who did the work, all share in the reward. Donating may sould like the easy way out, but
remember, people have to work jobs, to get the money. So whether you dug the well and set it
up, or worked a 9 to 5 job and helped fund it, you worked and you have done good works.
At this time of year, people like to jump in and help and in many cases, they get too much help.
Its when the holidays are over, and routine sets back in, is when funds and volunteering drops off.
I try to be consistant. You don't have to drop a load of money to qualify for doing a good work.
Jesus said, if you give someone a cup of water, in His name, you won't lose your reward. A cup of
water here and a cup of water there,...it adds up over time.