We all have different paths and roads to learning and living to please God. Especially with spiritual gifts. Not all of us have the same gifts and we should use are gifts wisely. I still have yet to discover actually what my spiritual gifts are. Like I said, in the past I tried ministering to others and trying to lead unbelievers to Christ. Most of that did not work. Perhaps, my gift is not leadership or ministering to others. I went into preaching without really asking God what to do. It seems that I had all this pride built up inside of me and to be honest none of these gifts can happen in are own human strength. Now I am learning to thank God for all the good that comes through me cause I have no control of it. As soon as I have pride I know for certain that I am getting carried away. I am learning now to come humbly before the Lord. In fact, I want to share something with you that I have asked the Lord last night what I should type or write to you guys of what God wants to do in my life.
Let me share with you about Paul's conversion to Christianity. After Paul's conversion, he spent many years preaching for the ministry to which God has called him. This preparation period included (time alone with God) as well as time conferring with other Christians. Often new Christians, in their zeal, want to begin a full time ministry without investing the necessary time studying the bible and learning from God. We need not wait to share Christ with our new friends, but we many need more preparation before embarking on a special ministry, whether volunteer or paid. While we wait for Gods timing, we should continue to study, learn, and grow.
Now then have you ever heard of stories of many ministers or perhaps prophets who took years and time by themselves to learn from God and study before actually going out and preaching and teaching exactly what God wanted them to? There are many people who also go into it without experience. I myself, have learned from that. I recently got saved last late September or October of this year. I've been studying the bible for about 3 1/2 months now. I still have a lot to cover and learn! I speak with my pastor on Tuesdays and yet I also speak to him about the numerous amount of people who are trying to teach me and lead me to Christ. However, without fear, I have told my pastor that I still feel as if God is calling me to spend quiet time with God alone. My pastor was actually quiet astonished by my response. He had told me that he would rather have people rely more on God then himself. In fact, he is proud when many people actually tell him that they would rather seek or hear Gods response rather than his first. My pastor also told me that he is still working on forming an attitude like John the Baptist. As Jesus Christ grows greater he will grow lesser. My pastor has demonstrated humbleness to me and is also not afraid to tell me about his past and struggles as well. He to has told me about his porn addiction and his struggle with lust in the past.
As I started telling him about the numerous people who wanted to minister me I also told him that I am becoming confused at the numerous teachings of the people and how they are different according to other peoples opinions or perhaps what they believe. Then he started talking to me about the quiet time with God every morning or even before you go to bed. PUT GOD FIRST! ALWAYS! I still speak with pastor on Tuesdays and I am still being discipled. But, I still feel that God wants me to go to him first and then speak with pastor of anything that I may be confused with. I have also spoke with a friend of mine who was the one who gave me the bible and preached to me and when I was saved. He told me to listen to pastor and keep notes and understanding of what he will say. I think this was before or after my first day at church. God is my first priority and pastor is the 2nd person I talk to because he demonstrates to me and comforts me because he shares with me some of the things he has gone through and any questions I have that God hasn't quiet answered yet I share with pastor.
Now then as I said earlier how I plan on leaving...... It is what I believe the Lord wants me to do. I have struggled and still experience strong temptations when I am online. Some of you say to flee from that temptation. Well then, Isn't what I am about to do regard that? The bible also states that If someone believes in something that they should not do which in term is wrong and yet they still do it, It counts as a sin regardless of what the bible may state. For example, if someone believes that they shouldn't watch a certain show and some people may tell them well this show isn't necessary wrong or it isn't written in scripture that it is wrong. The person should still accept that persons belief because the Lord may be working different in that persons life. Romans chapter 14 explains this.....
So what do you say now? Will you accept that I truthfully believe that God is calling me away from the internet? Will you also accept that I don't believe that It is right for me to be on here? Please understand that this has nothing to do with any of you or that I am not leaving this site just because I don't like it or believe that it isn't good or helping me. I plan on leaving the whole web! Having nothing to do with on here. That includes games, email, and so on.....