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Many times I would like to write things that are hard to articulate, I want to get my point across in clear way that others can understand where I'm coming from.
I could wine and complain about my past and say oh woe's me I am the way I am because of this or that and you should feel sorry for me. With this thought out of the way well go on.
I was the second most picked on kid in school, I had almost no friends most of the kids were jerks with a capital J , I love my stepdad but he was a severe jerk as well and he still is but he does his best. The first worst kid picked on had her cloths started on fire, she was in them at the time. Years later at age 32 she died of cancer she didn't care about life she didn't bath and a sore in in her leg developed into cancer all over her body, I was in the hospital room with her when she died. It makes me so mad thinking about this those bullies killed her. And I could have been one of there victims if I chose suicide, I thought of it allot.
O.K. now with all this out of the way what I came to to talk about.
Humans are so complicated so I'm going to try to limit my focus on a small part of humanity.
When you beat a dog, it gets mean or it hides and cowers not trusting anyone (if you don't say anything you more likely won't get yelled at or made fun of.) I find the most popular people are just as good or evil as the least popular people. You encounter someone in the chat room who strikes you as a little strange or unfriendly and it's more likely you recoil back and maybe you should but to many of these people communication or opening up to others is harder to do because it was made into a habit over a long period of early abuse.
I'm sure you try to be friendly to everyone but keep in mind some people are much harder to reach, they take work and time, and no I don't want sympathy many people have it worse than I do (I don't think I have it that bad though) Yes communicating is harder to me than some people but I have God and a knowledge of His Word which is more than most people have.
I have a wonderful person who goes to my church he's a strange guy and he barely talks but over a year my mom and I have been working on him and he's getting better he's has unusual Bible knowledge he's in the Word allot he had all kinds of mental problems before coming to church and he's getting better and better.
I could wine and complain about my past and say oh woe's me I am the way I am because of this or that and you should feel sorry for me. With this thought out of the way well go on.
I was the second most picked on kid in school, I had almost no friends most of the kids were jerks with a capital J , I love my stepdad but he was a severe jerk as well and he still is but he does his best. The first worst kid picked on had her cloths started on fire, she was in them at the time. Years later at age 32 she died of cancer she didn't care about life she didn't bath and a sore in in her leg developed into cancer all over her body, I was in the hospital room with her when she died. It makes me so mad thinking about this those bullies killed her. And I could have been one of there victims if I chose suicide, I thought of it allot.
O.K. now with all this out of the way what I came to to talk about.
Humans are so complicated so I'm going to try to limit my focus on a small part of humanity.
When you beat a dog, it gets mean or it hides and cowers not trusting anyone (if you don't say anything you more likely won't get yelled at or made fun of.) I find the most popular people are just as good or evil as the least popular people. You encounter someone in the chat room who strikes you as a little strange or unfriendly and it's more likely you recoil back and maybe you should but to many of these people communication or opening up to others is harder to do because it was made into a habit over a long period of early abuse.
I'm sure you try to be friendly to everyone but keep in mind some people are much harder to reach, they take work and time, and no I don't want sympathy many people have it worse than I do (I don't think I have it that bad though) Yes communicating is harder to me than some people but I have God and a knowledge of His Word which is more than most people have.
I have a wonderful person who goes to my church he's a strange guy and he barely talks but over a year my mom and I have been working on him and he's getting better he's has unusual Bible knowledge he's in the Word allot he had all kinds of mental problems before coming to church and he's getting better and better.