Is It Normal.....

When God speaks to me in anyway my eyes fill with tears not sad tears but my heart feels shakey, I believe that is because I feel So worthless and sinful, I feel ashamed but should I? When I think that Jesus died on the cross for unworthy sinful people like me when he was perfect it hurts me, I do love him and I know he loves me he died for us sinful people So we may have life but do I deserve that? I am nothing but grateful of what he did for us but sometimes I wonder Why me? I know that in my heart I wish nothing but good intentions but then again me by myself without Jesus dying for my sins and without God and the holy spirit I'm nothing but evil in my nature I'm nothing but sin am I right? But when I think back I feel like God has always been with me now I've not always been a true Christian but for as long as I can remember I've always wanted to know him, I've always felt like I could hear him, for example before I truly believed I was going through a hard time having a long distance relationship when I never spent a day without him in a year then he moves a state away and I have no phone to call him So I layed in my bed that whole day crying, the rain going along with the tears streaming down my face making me cry harder then a loud smack of thunder grabbed my attention still sobbing but barley tearing up I felt like God was talking to me, not yelling like most people would think thunder would mean, but comforting me I did not hear clear words but I felt the soothing of it and I felt it was God speaking to me, I stopped crying and finally got to sleep, thunder use to scare me. I was dedicated to God when I was a baby, I feel like God has special plans for me now tell me, what do you think

If you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour..........with a sincere and contrite heart, confessed your sins and accepted Him into your heart.............then Great and God bless and welcome to the Family of God.

1) Become water baptized in order to be obedient to Jesus
2) Find a church family to become a part of...........small or large.
3) Find a member, or more than one member who can study His Word with you and mentor you as you begin your walk with Christ.......it's a life changing experience and there WILL BE bumps and pot holes along the way.
4) If no one laid hands on you and prayed over you when you repented and accepted Jesus, go to your church family, or find two or more Sanctified believers and ask them to kneel with you, lay on hands, and pray that you receive the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit.
5) Study the Word of God daily!
6) Stand strong in the Faith!
7) Do not expect a "bed of roses" now that you are a part of the Family of God!

And, you are correct, rarely does God speak to His children through the "Booming Voice" of the Old Testament. In these times it is the "still, small voice" of God that calls us and speaks to/with us. Once you receive the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit, He will be your Teacher and Comforter and life long Companion.

Hope this helps

Being dedicated to God as a baby means nothing. God has plans for us regardless. Baby dedications are just a human act that only serves to make us feel we've done something spiritual. The bible says God knows us in our mothers womb, before any dedications. If God has any big plans for you, then those plans are His and His alone and has nothing to do with what our earthly parents did or did not do.
That said, God won't be able to use you in the best way if you are maintaining a distance from Him. Part of knowing Him is reading His word and praying. Through these things comes growth and wisdom. A sense that God is 'always with you' may or may not be true. Only God knows if He has done this more for some than others, but regardless, you have to do your part as well. You said in another thread you are not very knowledgeable about what you believe and that will be a hindrance to you.
So whether God uses you for big things or small things you still need to put your focus on your relationship with Him, not on how He may or may not use you. When you get too caught up in the idea that God has big plans for you it's easy to be distracted or focused on that, rather than on God Himself.