Hard to believe it's been 9 months already. Just yesterday it was March, and I sent Tequila back "home", and now it's December and almost Christmas. I'm dreading Christmas this year for more than one reason, but the main reason is that Tequila won't be here to share it with me. She won't get to see her stocking full of toys. We had a ritual, I'd open her stocking for her and give her, her toys before I went to the folks' house for the day.. She won't be here when I leave on Christmas morning, nor will she be laying on the bed waiting for me when I get back home. Our Christmas ritual lasted for 15 years, and it's going to feel strange not doing it this Christmas.
I usually got her some mousy mice, or bouncy balls and catnip.
She LOVED catnip, and playing with the mousy mice. She would always lose them and even if I hunted high and low, I never found them again. It was just like they vanished into thin air. Poof!! LOL..
I may have a new kitty now, but she is in no way, as friendly as Tequila was. I can't hold her or pick her up. I can't pet her unless she wants to be petted, or she swipes at me with her paw.. She does make me laugh, but she also makes me even sadder than I was before I got her.
I know that animals get sick and die, but I think they should be the one immortal thing on this God-forsaken earth. If only tears could resurrect our animals, they would never die. Or be dead for very long.. I wish animals didn't decay when they die. Otherwise I would have Tequila laying at the foot of my bed forever. That was her favorite spot. Either the foot of the bed, or beside my head or snuggled up to my back. That felt especially good when my back was hurting.
I miss chasing her around the house, and playing with her with the laser light and yarn. I miss the silky feel of her fur, her race-car purr, and those gorgeous golden eyes. Those eyes stayed open at the end, after she was gone. Big golden eyes staring at me, saying "thank you for letting me go".
You're welcome, BB. And thank you for being my best friend, my confidante, my beautiful wonderful angel.
Wait for me at Rainbow Bridge and I will see you in heaven one day soon.
I don't care what anyone says, there ARE animals in heaven. I can't imagine heaven being heaven without our beloved pets. Someday we and they, may not remember being together on earth, but we WILL instinctively know that we once belonged to each other.
*goes and bawls*