Hungry

I've searched and searched on here for someone who believes in what I do. But all I find are people arguing with each other. Trying to use scripture to outsmart each other.

I'm so incredibly hungry to find another person who believes in the true living god. A person who trembles at his name and heart breaks at his sin. Someone who's eyes have been opened about this world and the word unravelling and speaking to them with such force. The spirit pushing them to repentance

I go to church and all I see is fakery, people going to have a good time. Serving a fake god and a fake Jesus and believing the work of the spirit is moving.

I want to change and grow and fall on my knees and lay my face to the ground in humbleness to my father. I don't want a show or a sermon excusing my sin and the sin of the congregation. There's no passion, there's no hunger in anyone.

Is there anyone here who understands?

I asked The Lord to show me who he really is, and the truth made me tremble. My eyes are opened. I see!!
I see my sin, I see just what a wicked heart I have without him.

I see the sacrifice Jesus made for me. It's so much more than you realise. It's more than just dying for mankind.

When I talk to people it's like they are blind.

Is there one person here?

I understand what you are talking about, and it's terrifying isn't it? I've been thinking on this the last few day too, of exactly what actually happen on that cross. What He went through that paid for all our sins. Like you were saying it wasn't just His death, and it wasn't the lashes, or beatings, or humiliation, or being abandon by all His apostles, or any of the stuff that could be seen. He took the full wrath of God for all the sins of the world. He took the punishment each and every one of us deserved on Himself. He cried out "My God, My God, why hast Thou forsaken Me", why? I always felt this verse sounded off, but I've come to understand it now. He asked that because God forsook Him just like we deserve. Jesus was the only one that lived a sinless life, yet God poured every bit of His righteous wrath that we deserved into His son for our salvation, and that's what was in the cup He asked to be passed from Him. He wasn't scared of dying, or the men's abuse. He knew the wrath that awaited Him and still said "yet not My will, but Yours be done"

I understand exactly what you mean sister, and there are people here that know this too, even if they do argue they know the passion. I hope God gives you what you're asking for, and thank you for this posting I think it will get people thinking about it. We can't lose that "first love".

I am trying to become like that. I see my failure to meet Gods desire. And I agree about a lot of church goers being fake. As my family calls it, playing church, but not willing to make the sacrifices that God requires. I do also know from experience how hard it is to try to change. There are a lot of fake people, but there are people that are not fake but just have not learned that being a Christian is more then just going to church and saying your prayers before you eat. There is no one I know outside me and my family and 1. Family friend who really knows what it means to stop playng church. So there are people who are not fake...it is just really hard to find! Even my oldest brother tends to just play church. Doesnot really take it as seriously as he should. How old are you BTW?

I'm 32.
I'm so free in him, but I feel so alone in the world. I feel like I could burst because no one wants to talk with me.

Why does no one want to talk to you?

My heart just weeps for him. We know that when we are saved, god never leaves us, even if we don't feel his presence. Imagine knowing the father and him separating himself from you. The pain, the fear, the heartache he went through! Then to take on the sins of mankind, without the father. He did that for us! He did that for me! For my stupid selfish sin that I don't even deserve forgiveness for.
I'm so thankful, so terribly thankful for his grace and his sacrifice.
I want to change!

My heart is broken for him, I'm broken!

I'm 34 and live in the Florida panhandle, looks like you have 2 people here to talk with now, so maybe it's turning around for you.

No one seems to hear me when I talk about Jesus.

Yeah maybe ☺️

I know and it's so hard get across with our little words.

We're all broken, but He has come into you and given you new life. I know it's hard to feel like we deserve it, because we don't in any way, but that just adds to His glory and mercy. All we can do now is testify of that glory, and I don't know if you realize it or not, that's what you are doing right now. Even on a website.

Where do you go to church?

I'm surrounded by people who love Jesus, who love to worship, who aren't fake, and who are passionate about their lives testifying of Christ. I see the movement of the Holy Spirit in every group I've been a part of. Some are newly converted, and their love is so very fresh. Some have had the presence of Christ for years and they are settled in a comfortable enjoyment of Him. Some are struggling. Some have had victory. Some need more truth revealed to them, some might even to repent. But most of us trust the Holy Spirit to do His work. And we just accept each other at the place where we are at and just LOVE them. Which is what Christ does.

But through it all, I sense the presence of Jesus in our midst. Even in this chat room. It helps to not take the temperature of the people in any gathering, but to be in that gathering knowing that you are the presence of Christ. You are His fragrance. And watch to see who He wants to speak to with loving words. And do that. Look for the ones who are hurting, and speak his comforting words to them. You will be the one changing the environment in the room of people.

Keep your eyes on Jesus - not people. Keeping your eyes on Jesus takes you away from the danger of being too self-centered (which only leads to living in despair because we aren't as perfect as we want to be) and critical of others. We don't change by continual looking at our faults. We really only change the more we focus on HIM.

You are not alone - most of us love Jesus and know exactly what He did for us. We know how He suffered. Most of us are trying to be faithful with what the Holy Spirit is showing us. Keep reading the many godly loving things that are posted on this site. Ignore the rest.

But I'm glad I'm broken. It's a positive broken. Even though I weep, I know I'm loved

I'm in the uk. The church is full of lovely, kind, sincere people, but they don't seem to know him. They would rather chat about their week and sing hillsong because it's the latest thing and have a good PA system and fancy advertising. (And my church is a pretty basic church as they go)

They just don't seem to want to know him or talk about him, they don't seem want to change. They look at me like I'm mad when I stand there crying at how wonderful my father is!

I don't understand

Society makes it very hard to express those kinds of things. They are just probably not used to it. It happens like that with a lot of ppl at my church, even though my dad is always preaching against spiritual complacency. But they just don't seem to get what he is saying. It discourages him, but all anyone can do is be a living epistle. And be the change we wish to see in the world. Some people will catch on. It just takes someone sticking it out. Truth can be a hard but rewarding life.

When I came to the Lord. I was traveling the United States and climbing to the tops of mountains to talk with the Lord, and seek the gift of tongues. Which I never received that gift. What I did receive was a very close relationship with the Lord.
When I attempted Church. Seems the people were all about being bible smart. Thank goodness that we are the Church. Its not the building church members attend.

Jesus said, The world will hate you, because they first hated me. With them words, expect some opposition.
We also need to be careful that we do not believe the enemy's lies. No one Seems to hear me. That statement sounds like more of a feeling then a fact. I get similar thoughts at times.

Just remember, Jesus and the Angels rejoice anytime we speak of the Lord. So what may feel like a one way conversation at times. is still a good thing before the Lord.

I was referring to the "church" when I said "no one seems to hear me" when I talk to those not saved, they hear.(don't always choose to follow, but hear) But those that say they are, it's like they are wearing blinkers. They look uncomfortable talking about Jesus, they act like it's a burden. I don't judge them, but it's just a longing in my heart to have another person to share my passion.

Well it really sounds like He's got some work for you to do. Not everyone feels this strong a presents inside them. Do you mind if I ask how long you've been regenerate? You may be just what the people around you need, though I know that doesn't help your feelings right this second. Just hang in there sister you do have the most important thing in this life already, and the great thing about the Holy Spirit is that it guides you where He wants you to be, and with the passion I read in your post I feel He's got things in store for you. I pray that you are guided to what you seek, and find the peace of mind only He can give.

In feb, I cried out to him to show me the real him. I've been longing ever since. I talk to whoever I can. Mainly online, although the spirit leads me with people out and about too. I'm very shy, so it's not the easiest task as I tend to go "eeek" when god puts someone on my heart, the first bit, initiating a stranger, is a bit nerve racking.

Just haven't met anyone who says they are saved who wants to know.
Today I wandered about my town for 5 hours, just praying that the Holy Spirit would point someone out to me, I even went up to a church (but it was closed) and was guna go in and just ask the first person that they tell me more about Jesus. But still no luck.

I wish I had some good advice for you, but I don't have any for this specific situation. I really admire your hunger, and you just have to keep trusting in, and following Him. You can't fail God. No matter what you do He already knows your choice, so His plan will be no matter what any of us do, just keep drawing closer and you can't fail. He will not let you down, even if it's not exactly how you want it, or when you feel you need it. Just keep faith in our Almighty King sister, we all love you.

Careful to not be too critical of the casual church goer. They still gather in His name. Remember when the Lord says: I desire mercy, not sacrifice. And when He speaks to Peter: Tend my sheep.