Hi Sweetie. Welcome. As a mom, when my children were little, I warned them against things like going near a hot stove, or running in the street without looking. They didn't need to understand why I forbade these things, only that I loved them and was acting for their benefit. In the same way, God is pretty clear that there are certain things that we are not to involve ourselves with, and you may be finding out the hard way why that is. I pray that you grow in knowledge and trust in God as a loving parent whose "no"s are for our own good, even if we don't always understand why. May He who kept you safe as you reached for the perverbial hot stove, guide you back to a place of safety which you will never stray from again. God bless!