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Hi .. I am new to the group, joined to really get in touch with Christian people, going through one of the worst times in my life ... don't know where to turn to how to carry on into this dark uncertain future ahead of me. Only know that I believe in God and this is my desperate attempt for fellowship in a time that I sometimes feel I cannot pray any longer. Is there a specific forum on the page that I can join for some kind of spiritual support ... in a process of divorce?
I noticed last night various discussions on divorce. When allowed when not allowed.
Well in short here is my story....
Married 18 years, two beautiful healthy boys age 10 and 15. Known my husband for 21 years. He is a fearless person, very adventurous and the love of my life. Both of us is healthy and has a lot to be thankful for.
He grown up in a very expressive Christian family, and was bombarded by Christian activity throughout his years of childhood. His family is very judgemental about the way people life their lives. I on the other hand came out of a balanced Christian home ... one where not much was always said about faith but where my fathers hands on his bible every night before bed is etch in my memory from childhood. My family is not judgmental, and this actually caused quite a bit of fights when we started dating. My family are also more expressive about everyday life and don't back away from confronting anyone if needed. My husbands family steps away from confrontation. My family is a close bunch. His family none of them speak to each other they are all mad about various things but never speak about it, and all defend their position with some scripture.
Thing is when I met my husband we met through church and a commune Christian association. He seemed so sincere in his Christianity, turned out it was living the way he was indoctrinated.
He started to question religion, various other things were experimented on ... he wanted to divorce me five years ago, said he do not feel emotionally safe with me, I refused to divorced, did everything I could to "win" him back and it went fairy well after that, Told me four days back again he wants a divorce, again the not emotionally safe line and that he do not believe in God anymore ... do not believe in life after death ... he only has one life and he wants to live it to full.
It feels as though the world has stopped turning for me, I find it hard to breath, pray. I feel utterly alone have no... no idea how to deal with this anymore.
Most bazar thing is that I am always the one that wanted to talk about things, asked him to coffee breaks ect ... now he is the one not feeling emotionally safe. When I ask him for examples he can give me none, how can I work on something if I don't know what to work on.
Don't know if any of this will make sense to any one, just know that I feel as though air is running through my vanes.
He wants out marriage to end with the least discomfort for everyone!
I noticed last night various discussions on divorce. When allowed when not allowed.
Well in short here is my story....
Married 18 years, two beautiful healthy boys age 10 and 15. Known my husband for 21 years. He is a fearless person, very adventurous and the love of my life. Both of us is healthy and has a lot to be thankful for.
He grown up in a very expressive Christian family, and was bombarded by Christian activity throughout his years of childhood. His family is very judgemental about the way people life their lives. I on the other hand came out of a balanced Christian home ... one where not much was always said about faith but where my fathers hands on his bible every night before bed is etch in my memory from childhood. My family is not judgmental, and this actually caused quite a bit of fights when we started dating. My family are also more expressive about everyday life and don't back away from confronting anyone if needed. My husbands family steps away from confrontation. My family is a close bunch. His family none of them speak to each other they are all mad about various things but never speak about it, and all defend their position with some scripture.
Thing is when I met my husband we met through church and a commune Christian association. He seemed so sincere in his Christianity, turned out it was living the way he was indoctrinated.
He started to question religion, various other things were experimented on ... he wanted to divorce me five years ago, said he do not feel emotionally safe with me, I refused to divorced, did everything I could to "win" him back and it went fairy well after that, Told me four days back again he wants a divorce, again the not emotionally safe line and that he do not believe in God anymore ... do not believe in life after death ... he only has one life and he wants to live it to full.
It feels as though the world has stopped turning for me, I find it hard to breath, pray. I feel utterly alone have no... no idea how to deal with this anymore.
Most bazar thing is that I am always the one that wanted to talk about things, asked him to coffee breaks ect ... now he is the one not feeling emotionally safe. When I ask him for examples he can give me none, how can I work on something if I don't know what to work on.
Don't know if any of this will make sense to any one, just know that I feel as though air is running through my vanes.
He wants out marriage to end with the least discomfort for everyone!
