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jeaniebeanie

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I am feeling really horrible. I feel as if I am just existing and haven't any purpose. My story is a long one and I do not feel like sharing it now. I am angry at God because I feel that every single dream or hope I had for my life has been shattered. I have done all that God wants me to do and still I feel cut-off from HIM. I am tired of living this way, without hope or a future. I am 52 years old, single and haven't any children. I was an Elementary School teacher until I started suffering from panic attacks. I have been to doctors and no one has been able to help me. I feel old, ugly, stupid and useless. I am miserable!!! I am very UNHAPPY!! Where is the abundant life that GOD promises here on Earth?? I am not materialistic. All I want is to be able to function and have some happiness while I am here on this planet.
 
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blue_ladybug

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jeaniebeanie said:
I am feeling really horrible. I feel as if I am just existing and haven't any purpose. My story is a long one and I do not feel like sharing it now. I am angry at God because I feel that every single dream or hope I had for my life has been shattered. I have done all that God wants me to do and still I feel cut-off from HIM. I am tired of living this way, without hope or a future. I am 52 years old, single and haven't any children. I was an Elementary School teacher until I started suffering from panic attacks. I have been to doctors and no one has been able to help me. I feel old, ugly, stupid and useless. I am miserable!!! I am very UNHAPPY!! Where is the abundant life that GOD promises here on Earth?? I am not materialistic. All I want is to be able to function and have some happiness while I am here on this planet.
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hello and welcome to CC. :) You are NOT old, ugly, stupid and useless!! God created you and you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I would like for you to read my story on depression--my battle with it. I used to feel like you do. Please go to my profile page, under the Visitor Messages tab, and click the link entitled: "Depression- a ladybug's true story of dark vs. light". My story has helped many people on here, I pray it will do the same for you. :) Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk or vent.
 
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resurrection33

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Welcome to Christian Chat, JeanieBeanie. You say you’ve done everything the Lord wants you to do. Maybe you are missing something. Relax a bit and read Matthew, Mark, Luke, and John. Maybe you’ll find something that will help.
 
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You are none of those things Ms. Jeanie, you are special to God. Never lose hope and let God guide you, I know He will if you let Him, He hardly ever comes when we want Him, He's always there when we need Him. I'll pray for you..
 
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VioletReigns

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Jeaniebeanie, you sound exactly like me! When my eyes turn from the Lord and I start to doubt His great goodness toward me and how precious I am in His sight, those are the very words I use to tell God how miserable my nightmare of a life is. Honestly! I do not exaggerate.

On the other hand, when I die to my flesh/emotions and DO believe in faith that the Lord loves me tenderly, cares for my every need and offers me abundant life, I am the most joyful person you'd ever wanna meet! \:D/

The enemy is lying to you, dear sister. I'm going to add you as a friend. I look forward to getting to know you, Sister JeanieBeanie. (With a user name like that, you can't convince me you don't have a sense of humor!! LOL) We can be iron sharpening iron and encourage one another. Welcome, Jeanie!
 
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VioletReigns

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By the way, JeanieBeanie, I'm typing this response while I have two broken arms, sprained wrists & hands and am wrapped & in slings. I fell down about a month ago and fractured my arms and left kneecap. This is the first time in my life I have not whined to God about my situation. It's a miracle because I normally cry in the Throne Room of God, questioning His will in my life situations. My story is long, too and I'll spare you. But I'll tell you this, there is hope and promise that you will see things differently and all will be made new. I pray it for you in Jesus' name.
 
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bluebirdchaser

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You're welcome here. Truly it breaks my heart that you're hurting this bad. You aren't any of those things. You are beautiful you are wonderfully made. I don't have all the answers, but I am praying for you and if you ever need to vent my message box is always open to you.
 
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Stephanie_30

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Sometimes you have to make yourself happy. You have to find the things that make you content in life, the things that you were meant to do and do them. You have to learn not to rely on others for support. Do the things that make you. Whatever it is- do it. If it is finding a man, go find one, if it is being a counselor, then counsel, if it is music or the blues or whatever you seek do it. Learn that other people are faulty and will fail you. You are meant to be on this planet. You are a beautiful creature.
 
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