New member... Looking for an open mind Christian to communicate...

I feel alone, I am not a typical Christian. I have search everywhere and a lot have appened. I am a preshool educator, I am a massotherapist and a computer engineer. I have a multiple point of view and I don't need to be told typical all ready made response. I need to be eared with a compassionated heart. This is my bottle in the sea. May God attract someone that will contribute me without confrontation. Please God help me to transform me inside out and to create a good environnement arround me to support me so I can focus and contribute the kids of my school. Please everyone let me the space so I can shoose someone to contribute me. Talking to 1 million personne would not contribute me. I only need one or two or three personnes that will make a reall difference in my life now. Thanks for your commitment and for your time.

Or someone that want's to be in the presence of someone with an atypical path that doesn't claim to be the beholder of the truth.

God I need your protection. I need friend. I need fate. It's really hard to fell different then everyone else and to feel missunderstood and to feel seperated. I need to have confidence. I am falling a part. The event in my life are destroying me. "La méchanceté" that is present in this world is making me sad. The selfishness is making me sad. I need to escape this world. I need a relationship with you God so I can be protected from this world that I wish I was far away from. I don't understand why we are all mixte together and I really need you to open my heart and my eyes and my mind. I want to life in your presence so I can be a contribution to this world. I don't want to continue without your help God. I am tired of struggling. I am tired of making effort and feeling lost. I have done my best I think and maybe not. I have experience life and I have search for you. I din't create a inner world that honorate you has a have let myself be weak and I fall down one in a will. After seeing you and beeing in your presence, I have been exactly like the one that doesn't know you. Unfortunatelly I have let myself be weak and seperated from you. Maybe I could have done a lot better and maybe not. I want your help and I am just Patrick a fullish person with a heart of a kid that have been hurt by even that would not have been permitted in your kingdum. Please open the door of your kingdum one s more and I will enter like a kid this time. It's something to be a humain been in this time of humain evolution. Please forgive me for having been weak and for not having honorated everything you have gave me. I was borne in an environnement that was not proper for the flurishing of a Christian sold (âme). I wish I would have been more like you and that I would have broth more but I am only me. This is past now please touch me with your finger so the next part of my life could be a blessing for me and the world. I would be lying if I only said the world but when I can be well perhaps the me could disapear and you could manifest your will thrue me.

Hi and welcome to CC!
What's it that bothers your heart planetbluesky?

Thanks you very much!

I don't know if I can authenticly responde to that question... I don't really know....
I saw or was concious of the best and the worse in this world and I am really sad to see (see is not the good word but there no good word) the humanity is going of track of taking care of everyone. Ignoring some people suffering in countries like affrica and making people beleive that life is about having and feeling satisfaction for superficial stuff. It's sad to be trape in the circle needing to work coustaintly in order to do very little to make a reall difference in the world. I change my work to make a difference in childrens life and it's make me happy and I wish I would do so much more. I know that I have good intension but I don't think I am making a meaningfull difference. I listen to them with all my heart (I think) and I share thing in order to contribute them so they could be more happy and they could be more loving to others. But is it all I can do. But I don't know if I do make a difference. . My life is not going so whell because of some present circonstance. I wish my life would go weel so I could focus on making a difference that I am not really able to make I think even if I took so much time to seek for God and having found so much I feel that it only contribute me and I find it sad because the world really need to elevate is conciousness.

I responded in the wrong place I think oupss!

Hello and welcome. Your opening post is better suited for the Family forum. The new members forum is ONLY for introducing yourself. I will ask a mod to move this thread to that forum for you.

Hello and welcome, delighted to have you here.