Hello Everyone

Hi Amy, Thanks for sharing yourself, i passed through something like this, hope you be strong in faith (my hope for myself too), hope your staying in this website would be blessing to your life and your faith,
Best Wishes from a very remote country

Welcome to CC.
But you have yourself listed as a male.

A few comments on things you said.

Isaiah 6:46 - [SUP]6 [/SUP]All of us have become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags;
we all shrivel up like a leaf,
and like the wind our sins sweep us away.
Basically that means being a 'good person' means nothing. We are all sinners. Period. Being a 'good person' doesn't negate sin, only the blood of Christ does.
John 1:7 - But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin.

But also, being righteous or not has nothing to do with the good or bad things that happen to us.
Matthew 5:45 - In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike.
Essentially it says good and bad things happen to everyone.

Our faith should not be centered on our circumstances. Look at how most of the Apostles lives ended up. Look at Paul. Stephen. These were men whose faith remained true even in the face of prison, persecution and death. How easy wold it have been for them to turn their backs on God for things not going right?

And i share this as someone who understands where you're coming from. At a young age my mother started having health issues. At 14 i developed depression. At 21 my mother died from her illness and two months later my fiance dumped me. Shortly after i moved out of state for 10 years and spent the last 4 years in my car and feeling abandoned by my girlfriend. When i moved back home, 6 months later i was diagnosed with kidney disease and spent 4 years on dialysis. I few years ago i had a transplant and instead of getting healthy i have continued with all sorts of physical problems that prevent me from working. And that is just a few of the main issues i've faced and barely scratches the surface of all i've gone through.
So what i say isn't coming from one whose had a happy life and no real clue about how you feel.

[SUP]Ecclesiastes 7:3-4 - 3 [/SUP]Sorrow is better than laughter: for by the sadness of the countenance the heart is made better.[SUP] 4 [/SUP]The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth.