Hi to everyone here, I am new to this site, decided to join because I am struggling in my Christian walk. I would describe it like being a yo-yo, up and down, trusting God and Jesus one minute, then the next turning my back and living a sinful worldly life. Back and forth, I wonder sometimes if God will tire of this routine and abandon me, realizing that maybe I am not worth the love he has preciously offered to me. My situation is that I am taking care of my elderly mother, (she's 86), and I am not able to attend a church, and where I work there is no one else who even professes to be a Christian that I can talk to and share with, so I try to rely on the computer and internet to get my needed doses of sermons and advice. I am really hoping that some of you here will be able to encourage me as I try to straighten my daily walk with Jesus out. I am 57 years old and I have been trying to follow God for many years, but I always seem to drift away, sometimes for a short period of time, others for up to a year drifting aimlessly. I look forward to hearing from you here at CC, and I really hope that sometime even I can share experiences with others and maybe help someone else. Praying for your support and thanks for listening.