Hi everyone,
Let me explain where I'm coming from: I haven't been to church for four years. As a PTSD sufferer, I wanted to seek the Lord for healing from the effects of the trauma, all the time thinking: one day I can use this to help other people. It didn't quite work out that way. I began to feel a total failure as a Christian. Every time I had a flash-back or feelings of intense rage, or deep troughs of depression, which happened randomly, I felt I'd failed and God seemed a million miles away. Id go to church and someone would pass on a verse like: there is no fear in love, perfect love casts out fear or, most difficult of all: Be anxious about nothing (......). Going to a support group or a therapist outside the church was helping me. I began to distance myself from Christians because I assumed they'd want to be distant from me, given that all their prayer and lovingly offered Bible verses had apparently hit stony ground. I drifted away from church completely.
Fast forward and I want to try going back to a church again. I keep chickening out. I love Jesus with all my heart and miss Him when He isn't there.
Let me explain where I'm coming from: I haven't been to church for four years. As a PTSD sufferer, I wanted to seek the Lord for healing from the effects of the trauma, all the time thinking: one day I can use this to help other people. It didn't quite work out that way. I began to feel a total failure as a Christian. Every time I had a flash-back or feelings of intense rage, or deep troughs of depression, which happened randomly, I felt I'd failed and God seemed a million miles away. Id go to church and someone would pass on a verse like: there is no fear in love, perfect love casts out fear or, most difficult of all: Be anxious about nothing (......). Going to a support group or a therapist outside the church was helping me. I began to distance myself from Christians because I assumed they'd want to be distant from me, given that all their prayer and lovingly offered Bible verses had apparently hit stony ground. I drifted away from church completely.
Fast forward and I want to try going back to a church again. I keep chickening out. I love Jesus with all my heart and miss Him when He isn't there.
