Hello all, feeling so low

Hello everyone, I’m trying to find my faith again.

I fell pregnant 2 months after our marriage just by luck, we weren’t trying but we had our baby boy, Benjamin taken away from us when I was 19 weeks pregnant. This was in February this year - 2017.

I am finding it hard to understand why God did this. We’re trying again with no luck and just wonder if I’ve done something wrong.

How do I reconnect with the Lord

Welcome to CC. I'm sorry for your loss. God didn't cause this to happen. You may want to put this in Family forum, where it will gather more answers..

Accept it, accept that it happened, accept that everything has a purpose. In acceptance there is more reason to have faith and move forward, and look forward in a positive light.

Let's take the opposite.

We do not accept something (we deny reality), we don't accept that it happened (we think what if it didn't happen, or why did it happen), we don't accept that is happened because it was supposed to be that way (we start to think that something is out to get us, we are being punished, it is our fault, think God rejects us). In non-acceptance, one can only look downward.

I'm just getting to the point, the truth will set you free.

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You have done nothing wrong and to be honest neither has God.

How do you reconnect with God?

Just speak to him, be honest about your feelings and doubts.
He knows them anyway so express every emotion and feelings warts and all.

Have you ever read the book of Job? Do you know his story?
If not Please do so. Read Job 38-42

The difficulty we as humans often face is an inability to see the full spectrum of existence. We don't see Why things happen, or the source of it. We simply must live with the consequences.
But ultimately we, as believers, have to decide in our hearts if God is just and holy or if He's not. If we decide God is holy, not matter what, it makes it easier to accept what we're confronted with.
Often we want to blame God, even for things that go against His nature and character. We want to forget that we live in a fallen world where bad things happen. And not always because anyone has done anything wrong.
God never really promises to stop our suffering. He does promise to be our Comforter. He does promise to bring good out of the evil we go through. But not to prevent it.

I do not know why this happened to you and your husband. I can't even imagine how it feels. But I know I've been through plenty of my own hells and the only consistent has been God's love. If you want to reconnect with God, just speak. Tell him your anger, your hurt, your questions and your doubts. He's waiting for you. Just take the first step.