I have a lot of good things going for me. At 28, I'm starting on my master's and I don't want to fail. I'm definitely like my father in a lot of ways. I've struggled with addiction my whole life, but there have been periods of me going almost a year without any drugs, alcohol and porn. And then there's the schizophrenia of my delusions of grandeur. However, there's one thing I will not be like my father: a racist. There's so much temptation, but I have to keep busy for God. I recently left a conservative church due to my belief that God does not want us to focus on the Bible as fact but truth. Also, I only became a member so I could partake in communion. It was a pretty church. Anyways, that's my story.
Trying to get my life back with no crutches
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The bible is both fact and truth. Way to go having a bachelor's degree in hand and now going for your masters. Congrats also in getting your addictions in check. With the grace of God and determination on your part the addictions will remain a thing of the past. Pray to God to soften your father's heart on how he views certain people. Glad to have you as part of our community. Welcome to CC.
I understand the Bible is fact and truth in its message. And thank you. That's really encouraging. I'm so tired of procrastinating something or half-assing something and then turning to porn,alcohol and drugs because "I'm so stressed". It's evil what I'm doing. I should work hard, but instead rely too much on other people and not God. Phew.
Managing Schizophrenia requires medication. Close members of my family have it and medication keeps it under check. If you want to continue on the path to having a normal life. DO NOT STOP taking your medicine (assuming that you do take it). If you are not on medication, please consider starting it. Your life can be full and wonderful! Also, the addictions are a by-product of the mental disorder. Every family member that I have in my family that has it, has had some form of addiction as well. That's because the person knows that there is something not right and is trying to "self-medicate". This actually makes the condition worse. I have had to care for a family member who has it and lives with me, so I know a lot about it. Stay close to God take your medication! God Bless you.
I appreciate your concern, but I spoke with a psychologist and he told me that medicine of wellness (making sure I don't get bored basically) comes before putting pharma in my body. I have a spiritual disorder (really awful upbringing) not a physical one, so I don't think medicine will do much good in the end.
Ok, but if you are diagnosed with Schizophrenia, that is a mental disorder that is a chemical imbalance. If that's not what you have then you don't have Schizophrenia. I would consider finding a Psychiatrist, not a Psychologist. Psychiatrists are trained in these types of disorders. I had a bad upbringing too, but that doesn't make someone a Schizophrenic. You will not get better or become truly functional until you take medication. The family member who lives with me takes Haloperidol 10 mg and has been on it for many years. It works great for her. Until you come to terms and accept your disability, nothing will change. Sorry to break the news to you... God Bless, I hope it all works out. ♥
Well, you definitely aren't me. I'm not going to take medication because I'm an intelligent and imaginative person whose father is an alcoholic and totally hateful towards me because he's jealous of me and when I myself make minimum wage and gets by in life through student loans. That's just not going to fly with me.
That's a really extreme reaction to simple and solid advice. I ended my post by stating God Bless you. Don't let your emotions rule you. I am 100% positive that you are EXTREMELY intelligent. Intelligence has NOTHING to do with your illness. In fact, many super-intelligent people are dealing with your disorder. Don't be discouraged; don't let your emotions rule. God Bless you, truly. No harm or malintent was intended. Blessings on your journey to wellness. ♥
My father knew how to manipulate and scheme. He was a devil of a man. So, I'm naturally suspicious on people's intentions. And I have a habit of reading into things. Thus, the schizophrenic tendency. HOWEVER. If I was around people who weren't drugseekers or liars, people of stability then I wouldn't have that problem.
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Actually considering your scattered posts you sound more like "bipolar" than "schizophrenic",and I understand you not wanting people to "tell you what is best" and can relate to having an evil father,so glad I still have God as my heavenly father,sorry for the rather "pushy remarks" from brave heart gal(who sprung up from I don't know where) I'm sure you'll fit right in here glad to meet youand now for my typical greeting...
Welcome here you can discuss with bible smart people and possibly make new friends,hope you like it here!(and if you wanna have a conversation about your troubles sometime I'll talk with you any time and won't "tell you what is best" exactly more of let you unload about your troubles and try to encourage you to do right and trust God)
Welcome here you can discuss with bible smart people and possibly make new friends,hope you like it here!(and if you wanna have a conversation about your troubles sometime I'll talk with you any time and won't "tell you what is best" exactly more of let you unload about your troubles and try to encourage you to do right and trust God)
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Hi PT can I make one suggestion, make Jesus your crutch. We all need something to
lean on and make it Jesus.
I once heard a sermon where the minister asked where are all the limping Christians.
He was referring to the story of Jacob who wrestled with God and dislocated his hip,
so would have needed something to lean on.
People who stand strong and tall are too proud to lean on God, Yet the bible says when
we are weak then we are strong. Why, because it’s then we have to lean on Jesus.
God bless you in your realisation that you need to put everything else aside.
I pray that you will be one who over comes.
Revelation 3:20-21 NKJV
[20] Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and
opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.
[21] To him who overcomes I will grant to sit with Me on My throne, as I
also overcame and sat down with My Father on His throne.
I didn't spring up from nowhere. lol I've been coming to this chat for 4 years and many people know me. My remarks were not "pushy" but based in actual life experience dealing with mentally ill family members (plural) and I also had an alcoholic father, so I think I know what I am talking about. Joefizz don't be a bully and think before you speak.