I’m so sorry to hear that, Stephty. My heart ached as I read your post, and I wish I could give you a hug. Getting a divorce after 19 years of togetherness is a hard thing to go through. I just can’t imagine how painful it must be for you. I just said a prayer for you, and I hope that God will provide the comfort, strength, and the help you need at this time. Are you seeing a counselor/therapist? I’d suggest that you talk to a caring professional. I know it’s not easy right now, but stay strong. Sending prayers your way!