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I need some prays..
The father of my child took my child and it has been 14 day since I have seen him. The reason why he took my son is because of the fact that he thought he was in danger. ( I understand how he would think that as well) I have not been on my mood stabilizers and I have fits like a little kid. My anxiety attacks have gotten so bad that I throw myself on the floor bagging for someone just to hold me and to clam me down. I throw myself more then a few time on the floor acting like a little child. This last time it had happened I took off with the baby at 10:30 at night, the baby's dad thought that i put him in the car without a car seat and took off with nothing. That is not true. My friend also has a baby and i used her car seat. The reason why i left is because of my anxiety. The father of my child would not help clam me down. He told me to shut up and to leave and to forget about everything that has to do with me and him. He has mentally abused me to the point were I believed in my heart that I was not a good mom and that I need to go to the hospital. No one else in my life has told me that but him. He has stated that I will not be good enough for him nor his child.
I believe the reason why he has stated this is because i loved him so much and i wanted to be his only for so long that i pushed him away. All I wanted to do is trust him. But he kept telling me that he doesn't care if i trusted him or not. (how are you suppose to trust someone if they don't care?) Love makes you do some retarded things. I should have left once the TRUST was first lost. Once trust is lost in a relationship it takes two to fix it not just one. I got to the point were i was checking his phone and checking his email all the time because i thought he was cheating on me!! He has filmed me more then once on camera freaking out. I needed to use the car to go to the doctors and he wouldn't let me so i flipped out. He still wouldn't let me use the car that day and i ended up going to the hospital. He almost wouldn't let me take my money to go to the hospital.
He is going to file paper work tomorrow and I need some prays I am not a druggy and I am not a bad mom. I have a full time job that I have had for 3 years and its wonderful I get to help people everyday save money. I do a wonderful job as a mother. I know i have made my mistakes and I am coping with them the best way I can.. Please pray that he at least will file the papers to where we both see him.
Lord I pray to you to help me through this.
The father of my child took my child and it has been 14 day since I have seen him. The reason why he took my son is because of the fact that he thought he was in danger. ( I understand how he would think that as well) I have not been on my mood stabilizers and I have fits like a little kid. My anxiety attacks have gotten so bad that I throw myself on the floor bagging for someone just to hold me and to clam me down. I throw myself more then a few time on the floor acting like a little child. This last time it had happened I took off with the baby at 10:30 at night, the baby's dad thought that i put him in the car without a car seat and took off with nothing. That is not true. My friend also has a baby and i used her car seat. The reason why i left is because of my anxiety. The father of my child would not help clam me down. He told me to shut up and to leave and to forget about everything that has to do with me and him. He has mentally abused me to the point were I believed in my heart that I was not a good mom and that I need to go to the hospital. No one else in my life has told me that but him. He has stated that I will not be good enough for him nor his child.
I believe the reason why he has stated this is because i loved him so much and i wanted to be his only for so long that i pushed him away. All I wanted to do is trust him. But he kept telling me that he doesn't care if i trusted him or not. (how are you suppose to trust someone if they don't care?) Love makes you do some retarded things. I should have left once the TRUST was first lost. Once trust is lost in a relationship it takes two to fix it not just one. I got to the point were i was checking his phone and checking his email all the time because i thought he was cheating on me!! He has filmed me more then once on camera freaking out. I needed to use the car to go to the doctors and he wouldn't let me so i flipped out. He still wouldn't let me use the car that day and i ended up going to the hospital. He almost wouldn't let me take my money to go to the hospital.
He is going to file paper work tomorrow and I need some prays I am not a druggy and I am not a bad mom. I have a full time job that I have had for 3 years and its wonderful I get to help people everyday save money. I do a wonderful job as a mother. I know i have made my mistakes and I am coping with them the best way I can.. Please pray that he at least will file the papers to where we both see him.
Lord I pray to you to help me through this.
