No place else to turn...

I am new here....and actually feel so much guilt that this is the last place I look is to God??? I am separated from my husband now a few months....we are trying to work things out but, we have had a 4 year marriage of alchohol and arguing....My husband is born again.....and I am catholic but, since I have been with my husband I haven't felt welcomed in my catholic church....I feel more welcoming in his...but, since the separation....I have been extremely depressed and took a leave of absence from work and been on anti-depressants and very seldomly get out of bed.....He has been back in church and trying to find God again and he is feeling better but, me.....i want to start to heal and feel better and he tells me I need to find God....I don't even know where to begin.....I am ashamed that my life had to come to this to want to believe.....its just so hard to believe after going thru the pain of my separation.....I miss my husband so much and we tried counceling and it just makes things worse.....He said the only way our marriage has a fighting chance is if we give in to God....If anyone has any answers for me please help me I am so lost......

Thank you for listening......

hi AJ
Don't feel so bad about things. Sometimes God allows us to hit rock bottom because often thats the only way to get our attention and to get our focus on Him. I think God wanted your attention, now He has it. If you want to find God, the best places to look is where you know He is, in the bible, and in prayer. And, yes, sometimes His own followers can help as well. God can heal your pains. He can heal your marriage as well, though i make no promises because where humans are involved, there are chances ego's, habits, pride, addictions, or any other number of problems people can allow to interfere in what God is trying to do. But it is possible.
But don't be ashamed. Shame only holds us back. It never helps us. If you want to improve your life, your marriage, your situation, you have to move past the shame. Past heavy guilt. A little guilt is good, helps keep us in line, and be aware of our own wrong doings. But once it starts weighing you down, its time to shed some of that guilt.We are, after all, just human, and far from perfect. Its obvious you still care strongly for your marriage and your husband. These are good things. You don't see a lot of people willing to fight for their marriages anymore. See, you're down on yourself, yet you've impressed me with your willingness to fight and do what you believe is right. That's an awesome quality and one you should be proud of and start building yourself up from there.
So read the bible, pray, and don't hesitate to ask questions here on CC. Feel free to contact me directly if you want. Hope this helped some, take care.

I understand. It's is very hard, but remember it gets worse before it gets better. As a culture, we are taught to run from pain. Being an alcoholic, means you ran from pain and deal with it by drinking. Now it's time to deal with the pain. You have to sit with the pain before the cross and allow Jesus to take it's place. Message me if you want to talk. My husband and I have been separated going on 3 months, and I too am learning to sit in the pain.

I don't know what to say. When I'm down I listen to music, pray and read my Bible and wait upon the Lord and some how He sends the answer either in a song, a Bible verse or a person who is supporting and says just the right thing to snap me out of the darkness of depression and reminds me to seek and follow God's light and remember His faithfulness and love.

Though we may not always feel worthy, God calls us His beloved children and who are we to argue with God?

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welcome to cc, may you find comfort and fellowship and a deeper relationship with Christ Jesus

Thank you very much.....as sad as it is.....i owned only one bible and it was my husband's and he took it....I am not even sure where to start reading but, I i will start and pray.....I have found myself praying.....but, the guilt is a problem i feel horrible that my life had to come to this for me to realize I haven't really welcomed God into my life......my husband said its the devil pulling me away and to ignore.....I will pray and pray until he hears me......

Thank you so much for your warm welcome.....I don't know any Christians in my life other than my husband and I wasn't even sure where to look....I am so glad I found all of you.

I'm praying for ya! YOur not alone here! Just know you have brothers and sisters in Christ that will lift you up!

Thank you swimfast14.......I know this sounds odd maybe but, my husband says that I need to be saved......I looked online but, not really sure what I should do? I want to go to someone who will pray with me but, not even know where to look or who to ask......if anyone has any advice please my ears and heart are open for help.....thank you

here is an online Bible

Psalm 91 NKJV - Safety of Abiding in the Presence of - Bible Gateway

and if you want you can normally find someone who will pray for you in the prayer chatroom or the Bible study one. the lounge is a social hangout place but sometimes people respond there too.

have you figured out how to get to the chatrooms yet?

oh here is one of my daughter's favorite songs she's three and calls it her oo uh a ooo song

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thank you....I have but just observed a little.....I have been not in great spirits lately....so, to sit and focus on the computer is just hard for me.....I'm trying to focus but, the stress is taking over.....

go workout or run or dance or bake cookies or something. sometimes thinking is overrated. doing helps.

when I feel down I go visit the people in the nursing home and give out cards with Bible verses on them. it cheers me up to have the human interaction and smiles

Just remember, you didn't do anything wrong. The Lord will love you no matter what. None of us are perfect and none of us can live perfect lives, this is why we are not Him.

Hi, AJ, I'm glad you found CC . It sounds like you are going through a rough time, but I think God is using it to draw you to a relationship with Jesus, which is great! Let me explain a little more......

The Bible says that all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God (you, me, everyone. We've all done bad things, in one way or another. That's why you feel so guilty right now). Sin is what separates us from God, because He is so Holy. So, in order that us humans could spend eternity with Him, God sent His Son Jesus to Earth to live as a man and die on the cross to take the punishment for or sins, and make us pure before God.

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever would believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not His Son into the world to condemn the world; but that through Him might be saved" (John 3:16 & 17)

^^^^That last part is what your husband means when he says that you need to be saved. When a person gets "saved", they accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, believing that He is the only begotten Son of God, and that His death on the cross paid the price for their sins. When we trust Jesus as our Savior, we become adopted children of God. Isn't that amazing? We don't really deserve His grace, but He gives it to us anyway, because He loves us so much. Jesus is so awesome!

However, I know that belief isn't always easy. So, if you really want to know truth, then you can ask God to reveal it to you Himself, so that your faith won't be blind. He really does care about you, and His arms are open wide, ready to welcome you into His family.

If you can get a Bible, a good place to start reading is the Gospel of John.
The "New American Standard" version of the bible is a good one in my opinion, but you can ask God to lead you to the right one.

Please feel free to message me anytime. I hope this helps! I'll pray for you -Nichole

P.S. Welcome to the site! We are glad to have you!

Snackersmom......you really just made it so clear for me.....I will be reading my bible this weekend.....and get caught up on what I should have been doing for years.....Thank you so much......everyone has made me feel so welcome.....again....thank you.....

Hi AJ1004

I will pray with you! I am usually in chat in the evening and in the prayer room. I too had a drinking problem and struggled with the guilt and wondering how I arrived at my low point. I cried out and Jesus heard me. Boy, has it been an amazing journey! Keep seeking and praying and the Lord will hear you! He has healed me of the desire to drink, and continues to show me who He is. It's amazing. He loves you..... The Bible reveals promises and His love. He will show you! I have to be honest.... I had to start in the book of Psalms. I needed to know that I could cry out to the Lord and that he would listen.....

Psalm 18:6 In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.

He actually had to 'make me' like down in the green pastures before I could hear His voice and feel his peace.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]


God Bless you Sis. See you in Chat

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You are very welcome! Jesus loves you sooooooooo much! He wants to take away all of your guilt and replace it with the "Peace that passes understanding" . God Bless! -Nichole

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