I'm Maja and I'm 17. My story is not as easy as I wish it was.
I come from Poland and I was raised in a christian family (my Mom and her family are christians, but my Dad and his family are non believer). My mom decided that I'm going to have a baptism as a young child. I was growing in the belief that I must do what my mom said to me, so I went to church and pray - but now I realize that I was really unaware why I do it.
When I was 7 years old my parents decided that they are going to divorce. I was confused and I blamed myself and I was saying to myself " you're the reason why their marriage broke up"
Next years weren't bad. My brother and I was sleeping in my dad's house, spending weekends and holidays with him, we met very often, we had a lot in common.
And when I was 13 we found out that my dad has a cancer.
That was a time when I was praying really honestly and I used to hope that he's going to be allright. 3.07.2010 I saw my Dad for the last time. He Looked terribly. I haven't seen my Dad any more, I saw a person who is fighting, a person who has a cancer, an ill person.
Next day he died in pains and still thinking why it happens to him? At this time I was thinking the same way. I was mad to God. Why He allow to his death? Why? Why though I was praying truly my Dad died?
That was obvious (for me) that I 'm going to reverse from God. And that exactly I did.
It's been almost two years since my dad's death. I miss Him terribly and I wish he would be here, but I know it's not going to happen.
Now some things look different (I think that's because I have grown up) I miss my Dad but I also miss this connection with God. I'm thankful for my mother who is the best person in my life. She brings up my brother and my and I think she does very well.

I really want to come back to Lord and I've started studying Bible again. But unfortunatelly I have some doubts, because at this time I can't feel this connection with God as I used to feel when I was a child. I don't know why, what am I doing wrong?

Greetings, May God bless all of you.

Welcome! I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I pray that God can fill that empty place in your heart.
Don't give up we all have times when God seems far away...just talk to Him like you would a friend, He's listening.
This is a great place for making good friends. If you want you can make a post in the prayer forum or family forum.
Other people can encourage you. Glad you found the site! May God bless you and keep you!

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Psalm 126:5,6
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.

Maja Hello welcome to Christian Chat
May God Bless You,

Welcome, Maja . I hope that you find the answers you're looking for...... Jesus is holding out His hand to, hoping that you'll let him pull you out of the sadness you're in; He absolutely adores you, my friend . Please send me a message if you'd like to know more, or re-post in this thread, and I'll send you a message if you'd rather . Godspeed -Jill

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Pls i am sorry for every thing but only christ is who you need pls go close to him and he wil be close to you. Pray always and study ur bible