This was for the one who said, "and...." Let me expand.... My view of myself may be different than the reality. People tell me things and I'm like, "no way dude!" Some of these are compliments to things I think I am, I just am not good with that. Some things may be things I think I am good at or not that I don't really realize I am or not or whatever. That sentence will give you a glimpse of how I think in process most of the time but is still minimized. I think I overthink. Many agree, my wife doesn't or says it's fine. lol. I guess at some point I should give a testimony on an appropriate thread for that. Who I am. Way into music and trying to find the Christian form of what I like. I'm a musician. My preference is abrasive to some. Even with good Christian lyrical content. Some say noisy, I say lovely and beautiful...discordant mess of speediness and excitement. Not all of it is that speedy depends on what you like. I feel like I'm sensitive about what people say, but actually I see that maybe more people are even more sensitive than I am. When I am offended I try really hard to not let it go past me. To pray and give it To God. I don't want to put anymore negative output into this world than already exists. "Want to" is key. I feel that I am an empathetic person. Very possible we all feel that way until it comes to something we can't identify with. I'm trying to stick to the topic here. So, I wonder off until I end up somewhere not even near the topic I started on. Unless I slow down, however there are times when I might have the right answer. Those times are all God, especially the quick ones. I am pierced and tattooed. I don't really believe at this time that I will pursue that anymore. I feel I shouldn't so if I get off track down the road, anyone who reads this hold me accountable please. I like lots of music both before and now after Christ in my life. Or I'm open, I do take joy in the sound of a certain type. In order to not listen to what I had. I am writing my own with edifying content. It's not that I think it needs to be heard, at this point it is a way to satisfy the urge of some good music. And I'm stretching my ability to write creatively about the complete opposite of what I tried to learn to write about for 37+ years prior. I was very nihilistic and hateful toward the world and society, yet oddly I was very much in the world as I understand now. Not even very much, I was. Hope this elaborates enough.