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I am about 50 years old and the daughter of a fundamental minister, who passed away in 1999. My mother and father founded a church on a shoe-string and over time built a modest congregation and small church. I was raised with true Christian values and accepted Christ around age 15. I strayed from the Lord from about the age of 20 to 38. I became involved in the ugliest of sins. However, I returned, like the Prodigal.
I graduated University and Law School, but during law school developed the beginning of a debilitating neurological problem, which increased in the intensity of pain and frequency as time went on. I made it though school and started a practice, but became so overcome with the pain, caused by the abnormal narrowing of blood vessels and veins on the left side of my head, accompanied by vomiting, that I had to request a medical leave. I sought treatment everywhere. The only thing that helped was self-injecting a drug, which worked, but I was allergic to it and the doctors refused to let me continue due to the likelihood of anaphylactic shock and death. Therefore, I was given pain medication, which helps to a degree, just about makes it tolerable. The episodes occur up to 3 x a day and last from 1 1/2 hours to 3 hours. Over time, it has decreased and Now I only get this problem about 3 x a week, as opposed to evey day. However, I was unable to work for many, many years and eventually applied for disability.
Then, in 2011 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I had a double mastectomy, chemotherapy and am still on oral chemo as well as hormone treatment. I hav tried relentlessly to obtain employment, any kind. But most employers look at the lapse in work history, medical history and age. Although illegal to discriminate against age or medical conditions, the employers don't use these as the excuse. If I apply for anything in the legal field, like a paralegal, they feel I am over qualified. I have taken jobs as a caregiver to the sickest people who can't find anyone willing to work or the due to incontinence (both ways), weight (one was over 300 pounds). I have done housecleaning.
I am living in the family home with a mortgage of 400 a month and taxes of about 450 a month. If I cant afford it here, I certainly cant afford an apartment, where I live. I had a job as a field inspector, inspecting and taking pictures of distressed properties and then entering this data and photos into the company's site. But, the company has been failing and it is costing me more in gas then I am making.
I received a letter that the bank will foreclose if I don't pay the balance due of 1,700.00 by June 29. I am facing being forcible removal by the sheriff. I don not have even a dime for the first, last and security on an apartment. I have prayed and prayed for over 3 years, knowing this would come, and it has. I am still dealing with cancer, but will work anyway, regardless of the pain.
I have not even one friend, or relative. I have looked into any possible assistance for those with cancer or diabiities, but I do not qualify for anything other than the amount I receive from SSI and Medicaid in my state.
I do have two internet friends in 'Arkansas wh0 are Christians and are willing to let me come to live with them, at least until I could find some job there. But, I have never met them, and it is a great risk, not to mention imposition on people I don't even know. Further, if I did move, I would loose my medical benefits in my state and t apply in 'Arkansas requires a first establishing residency for at least 6 months. I cannot go without medicine or treatment for this long or I will die. I have about 3-4 months before I will be removed. My church knows my situation, but just tells me to trust the Lord, pray that he will provide. I am trying, but the trainwreck is quickly approaching.. Does anyone have any advice? I don't believe the Lord would have me just sit out my hands and take no action at all and just trust he will provide without me doing anything.
I need an honest, indifferent perspective and someone with some help. Up until this point, I have not been able to figure any way out.
I graduated University and Law School, but during law school developed the beginning of a debilitating neurological problem, which increased in the intensity of pain and frequency as time went on. I made it though school and started a practice, but became so overcome with the pain, caused by the abnormal narrowing of blood vessels and veins on the left side of my head, accompanied by vomiting, that I had to request a medical leave. I sought treatment everywhere. The only thing that helped was self-injecting a drug, which worked, but I was allergic to it and the doctors refused to let me continue due to the likelihood of anaphylactic shock and death. Therefore, I was given pain medication, which helps to a degree, just about makes it tolerable. The episodes occur up to 3 x a day and last from 1 1/2 hours to 3 hours. Over time, it has decreased and Now I only get this problem about 3 x a week, as opposed to evey day. However, I was unable to work for many, many years and eventually applied for disability.
Then, in 2011 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I had a double mastectomy, chemotherapy and am still on oral chemo as well as hormone treatment. I hav tried relentlessly to obtain employment, any kind. But most employers look at the lapse in work history, medical history and age. Although illegal to discriminate against age or medical conditions, the employers don't use these as the excuse. If I apply for anything in the legal field, like a paralegal, they feel I am over qualified. I have taken jobs as a caregiver to the sickest people who can't find anyone willing to work or the due to incontinence (both ways), weight (one was over 300 pounds). I have done housecleaning.
I am living in the family home with a mortgage of 400 a month and taxes of about 450 a month. If I cant afford it here, I certainly cant afford an apartment, where I live. I had a job as a field inspector, inspecting and taking pictures of distressed properties and then entering this data and photos into the company's site. But, the company has been failing and it is costing me more in gas then I am making.
I received a letter that the bank will foreclose if I don't pay the balance due of 1,700.00 by June 29. I am facing being forcible removal by the sheriff. I don not have even a dime for the first, last and security on an apartment. I have prayed and prayed for over 3 years, knowing this would come, and it has. I am still dealing with cancer, but will work anyway, regardless of the pain.
I have not even one friend, or relative. I have looked into any possible assistance for those with cancer or diabiities, but I do not qualify for anything other than the amount I receive from SSI and Medicaid in my state.
I do have two internet friends in 'Arkansas wh0 are Christians and are willing to let me come to live with them, at least until I could find some job there. But, I have never met them, and it is a great risk, not to mention imposition on people I don't even know. Further, if I did move, I would loose my medical benefits in my state and t apply in 'Arkansas requires a first establishing residency for at least 6 months. I cannot go without medicine or treatment for this long or I will die. I have about 3-4 months before I will be removed. My church knows my situation, but just tells me to trust the Lord, pray that he will provide. I am trying, but the trainwreck is quickly approaching.. Does anyone have any advice? I don't believe the Lord would have me just sit out my hands and take no action at all and just trust he will provide without me doing anything.
I need an honest, indifferent perspective and someone with some help. Up until this point, I have not been able to figure any way out.