22 and trying to find God in my life

Hey guys, my name is Jerry and I'm new to this site. sorry for the length of this btw. A little background on me. I'm 22 years old heading into my fifth and final year of college. I grew up catholic never missing church ever no matter what. After I got into college I had a bunch of stuff happen that caused me to distance myself from God and the church. I had a good friend get violently raped, I started drinking and partying hard, fooling around and sleeping with girls I had just met while drinking, and completely stopped going to church all together.

For the longest time I was just having fun and thought I was simply enjoying life, but then I realized something was missing in my life. I had become more unfamiliar with my highly religious family. I have a brother three years younger than me who died at birth and I had always tried to simply forget about that through my life. I noticed my life quickly going into a downward spiral and I needed to change my ways. I began to think of my little brother and in a way i see him now as a second guardian angel and how I wanna make him proud and meet him when my time eventually comes to an end here. I do wish to have a sense of meaning in my life and fulfillment, not just for him but for me as I feel like I've been living a selfish hollow life centered around pleasure and fun. Now that I've introduced myself I just wish everyone here to keep me in their thoughts and prayers and wish me luck as I try to find God in my life.

Thank you for your honesty Brother , one step is right that you realize God is the most important part of your life
One step more is Pray

The Power of Prayers, well.. I do believe that prayer changes things.. Yet, sometimes I just feel so tired to read my bible(sometime in case situation), and i have quiet time with God and say a simple prayer. Yessss, even tho just a simple prayer, sometimes it took all my energy and effort just to sit down and pray!! So when I come to God, I have given to Him only the remnants of my time.. sometimes.. I do struggle. How about you?


The traffic has consume lots of my time. And the business of work, just took so much of my thought! Hectic day is every day and all I wanna do after I reach home is.. sleep! Frankly to say, I know the importance of having a prayer life and I still trying my best to give God the best.. But sometimes, the temptation to just sleep is too good to be true..

so i have Weekly devotional email from HisPrincess. I loveeeeeee this ministries so much.. I love the way Sheri Rose, the author style of writing. I love every sweet little things And here I copy for you what the weekly devotional talk about.. When I read it, this article is another how God truly meet what I need at the right time.

My Prayer Warrior,

You have My full attention when you call My name. Don't ever underestimate the power of your prayers my princess warrior. I want you to confidently call on heaven, that you may see my mighty hand move on earth.Your words spoken in someone's dark hour will move My Spirit to light their path. Your prayer for someone who is lonely will usher in my comfort. Your prayer for protection over someone in danger will send my angels to their aid. There is an invisible war around you and your prayers are the evidence of my power at work in the world.One day, on the other side of eternity, you will see how your prayers affected and protected many lives while you lived.Love,Your God who loves when you pray

Geez.. Prayer not only changes things, prayer changes us, changes the life of people whom we prayed for! The power of your prayer will light someone's dark hour. The power of your prayer will give comfort and protection. The power of your prayer will turns the world around. So let's pray, despite all the tiredness and hectic day. Do not only pray to God because we need an answer, but seek Him because we truly know that He is the only we need. Jesus You are the cup that won't run dry

Be blessing
-cilla-

If you go into the Chat Rooms and see AlaynaJ make sure to say hi to her.

Hi, Jerry; welcome! I'm going to ask Jesus to become more real to you; to show you that He loved you so much that He died for your sins yet still adores you afterwards. Have you ever asked Jesus to be your Savior ?

Thanks for sharing with us, Jerry. I'll pray for you. I think you wanting to make this change is great. God loves it when we want to come to him. He rejoices when we do. I'm sure he'll find you and you'll find him. You ever need to talk you can always inbox me. Welcome to cc!

Thank you very much for the support guys, it is genuinely appreciated!