I need to share this with you. I stayed and am currently in my 34th year of marriage. Similar to yours but not exactly alike.
I stayed in it for God first....who has blessed me in so many ways just very recently. I look back and I feel like it was a test, that I passed. But realize I may be in my next test, and it's even harder this time.
Last week was our 34th wedding anniversary and it was just sad, but hopeful. I have had this feeling that this time next year will be so special that God will have fixed my marriage. But....I also realize that though I have Jesus and let him lead me every step of the way, I am prepared that this could be the devil and not God who is telling me it will be wonderful next year. Satan might just think this is the way to break me, but I won't let anything break me from God.
I have never shared anything with anyone about what I went through. Only God knows. But I will say that I have opened up to my adult daughters and let them know that there has been trouble in the marriage and that I am the one who is working along with God to save it. This has been just the last 2 years that they know we have had major issues we are still dealing with. Primarily because he would never deal with it. Then I got him into counseling but the counselor gave up on him.
Today my daughter was back in town and gave us our anniversary card. I would like to share it. It felt like God blessed me all over again.
Mom and Dad,
Children seldom understand the trials their parents face, the dreams deferred, or sacrifices made until one day when they are grown with grown-up-choices, too, and realize the debt they can't repay.
Only you two know all that's gone into your marriage or how many challenges you've faced. But I know how much I love you for all that you've done to stay together. It couldn't have been easy to keep your patience, your sense of humor, but you always pulled through. And in the process, you taught me a lot about the power of commitment, the importance of family, and how to get by in a less- than - perfect world. I am very proud of you for that. Happy Anniversary
I hope my post helps you somehow to make the decision that is right for you. God Bless