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AmandaLee26

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I'm amanda and I'm 26 and a missions and nursing student. I struggling so bad right now I'm looking for encouragement
 
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Chezz

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Welcome to CC :)
 

GodssSon

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Hey Amanda, welcome to CC! Sorry you're struggling bad right now :( Feel free to message me anytime if you want to let anything out :)

-Tim
 
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bluebirdchaser

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Hey, you're welcome here. Sorry to hear you're struggling. If you ever need to talk or anything feel free to shoot me a message, I'll try to get back in the day. College can be tough. I hope you have a wonderful time here.
 

MartyrNdaMaKn

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Hello and welcome Amanda, delighted to have you. May your stay be filled with the love of Christ and the support you seek. God Bless.
 
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AmandaLee26

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Thank you for those kind words.
 
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AmandaLee26

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Long story short, I've been abused, raped, mom committed suicide when I was 7. I never knew my dad grew up in foster care until I was adoptdd. But right now I've been sick 4 3 months my uncle was murdered 5 days ago now my heart is enlsrged. Wheye is god?
 
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AHealingPen

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Good Morning Amanda,

Everything will be ok, God is working things out. I say, if you were able to wake up this morning, then the Lord Almighty has you in his plan today. Your spirit is hungry, feed it with the word of God and you will walk in confidence.

Read this passage: It will feed the spirit.

1 Peter 5:7 [Full Chapter]
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
 
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AHealingPen

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Amanda,

I am sorry to hear all that has happened to you. I'm sure if we all let our hair down here on this forum you would find yourself not alone but, among friends who share the same experiences with you. God bless your Mother and have mercy on her soul Lord Jesus, and I'm sorry you never knew your Dad. You prompt my pen with your words lady and my heart bleeds for you and what you are going through. I am a Mother and have two daughters in this world, I too have been abused, raped, and was adopted, I was in an orphanage - as no foster care was around then - I share your struggle and offer you my heart for listening to you without judgement. You can send me a note anytime. I will be here for you, consider me a sister.

You say, Where is God? He's there, he's all around you - for one - you are still alive. Even though you are going through these terrible trials and tribulations, know that God is still in control - you are bearing witness to this life for some reason. My life, I was created out of a lustful one-night stand with my biological mother and a man she met at a party. She was married and went back to her husband pregnant with me. Continuing to have sex with her husband she didn't know if she was pregnant with his child or that man she had a fling with. But, she made preparations for me to go immediately to an orphanage if she discovered that I was not her husband's child. So the moment the blood work came back, off I went. I was raised by parents who did their best to raise me and make me the woman I stand tall today to be for my daughters and husband. My family loved me and yet, we did not live the perfect "happily every after" life - my Dad had an alcoholic problem, my Mom stayed depressed and I was there to witness the fighting and anger that went along with all that - however, all in all I appreciated the life they gave me and the fingerprints they put on my life. I thank God for them. Afterwards, still a child of 12 I was being molested by a babysitter's husband and later on raped against my will. It took me long time to figure out I was not the blame here in this happening to me and still today, I've never confronted him or spoke with him again. I kept the secret with me as I was afraid that my Dad would kill him. I wanted desperately for my Dad to see me and love me but, he never expressed it so as a child I didn't think he did... and I turned to alcohol and drugs myself for a long time. I left home at 17 to support myself and continued to seek men who would abuse me and treat me like dirt and a doormat. But, one day, after having yet another fight with my boyfriend of 13 years, he left me alone in a parking lot, took my glasses so I could not see and drove off with his girlfriend. All on a Friday right after work - I never forgot that day I was cold, could not see, and hand no money nothing - but, I looked up in the sky and said, "Lord if you are really up there, I pray that you hear me now, as I am like a babe in the woods, I'm blind, I cannot see, I have no money, no home to go to nothing and if you are there and hear me, now would be a good time to take me by the hand, I surrender. Then, in less than a moment, I heard a voice, and a man said, hey, lady don't come over here I'm peeing and I don't want anyone to see me. I told him not to worry as I don't have my glasses so I can't see where you even are and that I'm on my way to the store so no worries, I won't bother you. So after he finished, he met me on the pathway that took me to the store, and offered to help me get there, he said he knew me as he use to see me with my boyfriend all the time, he was around there and he knew the maintenance people there on the complex and they would all see me with him from time to time. So, I told him where I was going and he offered to escort me there and he did. When we arrived at the store, I saw a lady I was helping to find a job - as I was a recruiter then and helped people find jobs. She use to share with me stories about her family when I saw her once a week. So, when she called out my name, she said she wanted to introduce me to her family. (that she had been talking about) so I politely said, hello as she introduced me to her husband, children and her brother-in-law. Charming was he and handsome too, but, I reminded myself that this was not the time to admire a handsome man, I needed to go in the store and try to write a bounced check to get some money to get a hotel room for the night as that was my plan. But, they were leaving and he was going in the store so my escort told me that he knew them and they were really good people. So he left and the new friend and I went in the store together, the check thing didn't work so I was embarrassed about that and he offered to help me as I explained to him what had happened. So, he took me back to my friend who introduced us and I got in the car with them and he took me to the hotel and paid for a room for me and while we were in the store he bought me all the stuff I needed, toothpaste, deodorant, and a few more personal items. Then he said, I could pay him back another time so we exchanged numbers and he told me that he didn't want to stay nor wanted anything from me but, to know he did something for someone who needed help was enough. To make this long story shorter, he's now my husband - proposed on the 3rd day after meeting me and we have been happily married for 21 years now this January. God, heard my prayer and saw my situation and ever since then, I knew he existed and he was in my life. Just waiting on an opportunity for me to see him and acknowledge him through all my trials and tribulations. So, I share all of this with you to say, I understand, I hear you, I see your pain, and to let you know that God is here for you and sweetheart, it is true "Everything will be ok, God is working things out." Open your heart and expose your most intimate self to the LORD ALMIGHTY tell Jesus all of your troubles, how you feel about everything, yell scream, fuss, cuss (yes) cuss if you have to get it all out as Jesus understands and hears you. Once you do, he will know you are ready now to see him and acknowledge his works. Like I said, if you ever - ever - ever need someone to listen to you. I AM here for you. You will be in my prayers. In Jesus Name. Amen.