heart in limbo

Just another night made it through another day...it's hard smiling pretending with the world that I'm ok...but it's hard raising two boys by yourself...I'm still biblically married but my husband isn't....I'm Christian he's not...we've been living separately for two years now...his choice but not before he found a place for him and his new girlfriend and son..hers not his...they separated after 7 months and all that time he kept coming back...then to get away from her he moved to another city ..he comes see us tells me how much he still loves me...but i know it's not true cause if he wanted his family back he would tell me to pack the boys stiff and come be with him...but he hasn't...I'm lonely now and I'm afraid to start dating because in God's eyes I'm still married...i want to be a good Christian woman but I'm lonely....hello

Help...anybody there

You're welcome here. (This isn't the live chatroom, just an fyi, that's why there wasn't an instant response of people). This is a tough thing you're going through and I'm sorry for your pain. Sometimes you just have to let it out. I think 1 Corinthians 7 might talk about this, and you might try making a thread in the family forum too. But if you just need to talk we're here for you too. My inbox is open if you ever need to vent.

Hello sister....im sorry you are going through this...raised my two daughters alone...
God doesnt want you alone......but if it was me.... I would be hesitant to rush to a man
who already left me for another.....unless he came to God first......God tells us that infidelity
is the reason for divorce....I would get involve with your chuch and surround yourself
with the right people....Get busy....make a life ...you will find that you are stronger than
you think....once you find a routine and move forward...you wont be lonely for long...
Try not to make decisions while feeling this way.....think things through...what has changed
in this man that makes you want to be back with him....it would be great if you can
repair this marriage....but unless he has made big changes....by committing his life
to God... your marriage will not be differant from before...
Im here for you ..you can pm me anytime.....your not alone...
we have a womans forum here...many wise women who have been in similar
situations which who you can trust....come talk and get all the information
and peace with the decision you will be making....
Peace and love to you my sister......jo

Welcome to CC

I thank you for your kindness and encouraging words....the Lord is my strength...I've been holding on to a marriage that isn't a marriage...sometimes i wish i could shake him and tell him I'm here why can't our kids and i be enough...i feel sorry for him because although i love him...i know now I'm not online with him...i was and an a good Christian wife and woman...hes lost my respect and most of all my trust....it's been two years...that I've been waiting and praying...and i can't wait forever...im lonely sad..i feel sorry when he comes to me...i feel degrated and used...my God loves me..i know I'm never alone I'm blessed that i have my two boys...but i want a partner whom is suppose to love only me as the bible says...so disappointed

How do i pm..really new at this