This is part raving part prayer request. I wish I wasn't a freak. I feel as if I am a freak a freak with Asperger's. I wish I was allowed to think different things. What I mean by thinking different things is I am very attracted to a single man at my Church. It's probably wrong for me to be he has probably put me in the friend zone. I feel as if it were anyone else this would be ok but since it's me and I'm disabled it's wrong. I know there is nothing wrong with friends but thing is I have plenty friends and I got alot of icky going on and it would be so nice to get excited about someone taking me out and things like that. Plus I haven't been on a date in four years and I miss it I don't miss the person I dated but I miss the dating. It's so much fun for me to look forward to going out and thinking of what do I wear and just fun things like those I really miss. I miss the compliments and the attention I would get on a date it never crossed a line of course but I hope you know what I mean. Plus as I said I am very attracted to this man and its been a while since I been attracted to anyone. So I'm asking for prayers about all of this.