Those who the Lord sets free, are free in deed. We're told to go humbly before the throne of grace, you most certainly are worth forgiveness, if you weren't Jesus wouldn't have died for us. That's just satan telling you lies, he's making you feel guilty, do NOT listen to the father of lies and the auther of confusion. Rather listen to the voice of truth, God's voice, listen to what He's telling you. I'll keep you in prayer, and I really hope things get better for you, seek God, go to Him, run to Him, not from Him. The longer you wait to go towards God and ask for forgiveness, the longer you'll feel "paralized" by sins, guilty, etc. You'll just continue to sink down in a place you don't want to be, BUT when you stop listening to satan, and allowing him to control your feelings, by rebuking him in Jesus name, he WILL flee and leave you alone. He fears the name of Jesus so much, just one simple word, one simple name JESUS! Say it sweetie, and the ole devil will go away.I'll pray and the Lord to help you through this, and to hold your hand, to carry you through this storm, and while the devil's ''brewing up a storm'' to reach out His mighty hand, and to hold the waves back so they can't come crashing down upon you. Just like He parted the sea for Moses and the Isrealites, when He was freeing them from Egypt, then as soon as they all crossed the sea what happened? The waves came crashing down again, BUT not on them, on the Philistines. Also think of when David was the only one brave enough in heart, and strong enough in faith, to go up and face Goliath. He was HUGE a GIANT and David, he was just a "boy'' as his brothers and everyone refered to him. They doubted him so much, BUT what did David say? He said the Lord is with me. So David went to fight Goliath, and what happend? David told Goliath that whlie he had many weapons, his strength, etc. that he had God and he would win. Of course Goliath laughed so much, but in the end, David took a rock and a sling-shot, said a prayer asking God to guide his shot and arm and everything, hit Goliath right inbetween the eyes, and then he fell to the ground, David won! With his faith in God, and his brave heart. Be of good cheer, the Lord is with you. Don't try to take this battle on alone, we can't do anything alone, but with Christ, all things are possible.God bless you so much, I'll be praying.